pics n pics..of the WHIMSICAL!!

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There were supposed to be pics taken long time ago..when we r doing the Launch at Clementi Woods Park on 14th Dec 2007(if i did not remember wrongly..ha..)

SHOPPING!!

2day me n er jie suppose to meet up with daryl n se hao to do rer project..but we didn't..suppose to go violin prac..but we didn't..n we end up..going shopping!!ha..cause CNY is coming..n also our attachment..so we really got many things to buy..but we don have much time..cause we r tied by projects n projects n endless projects..after all done..already need to chiong for exam liao..sianz...

so we meet at ugis to shop for clothes..w start vy going bugis junction..there r clothes that r nice..but was super ex..so actually..everytime we went in a shop..1st thing we do is to see the price tag..haiz..it's been a long time since i went Bugis..n i don know that SEIYU change to BHG?when was it?

The way to cross the traffic light to bugis street ws super duper crowded..we r like squeezing n pushing each other in order to go out of the way..n i will never step into bugis street in weekends anymore..wa..can faint inside leh..we went to bugis village..n went in a shop to try on pants n skirts..we each bought 1..diff design..at $18 each..

then we return to bugis junction de URS n Charles n Keith...er jie canot find her shoes that she liked at URS..when we previously saw it at BHG..but no her size..n i went back C & K to buy a bag for our attachment..at $32..n heels ..at $37..that was the heels i saw at jp..but cause that time no size..so never buy..er jie tried on few heels..but never find any she wan to buy..

The things i bought was in a super big bag..i thought my mother was not at home..so i carried it home..but when i'm in mrt..she called to said she will be at home..wan me buy dinner!!jia lat..if she saw my big shopping bag.she sure knew i spent $$ n went shopping..cause i told her i going do project..so i asked jx for help..as she's not at home..n neither her family members..i left my stuffs in her electrical riser cupboard beside her house door..i was so "da dan"..cause inside cost $87!..if missing..there goes my $$..but luckily..it is now safe n sound in jx's room..luckily she live near me..if not..hur hur..war at home again..

i knew that my mother will no matter wat will know i spent $ on bag n shoes..cause i can't hide from her when i bring them out..BUT..not now..at this very critical situation..i canot take any risk..very dangerous..to my life..n to my phone..cause u will not know the life of being threatened that ur phone will go missing in sec..n most importantly..a "siao" person at home..means.."life's in DANGER!"...

i so terrible..go shopping also must secretly..buy things also must hide..haiz..

nervous n restless...

This was the 1st time i wearing formal to sch..n it was..really formal..i still canot get used to wearing heels yet..n it was super pain..but don know why..only on the left foot..
met up with jx i early morning..as her friend is fetching her..n suan bian..fetch me too..to sch..wa..walked a super long distance...err..was quite weird sitting in the car..cause was quite pai seh..but..we really save time n walking distance to sch...

we started rehearsal at blk 34 level 3..not very successful...when we wanted to go up n mark our attendance for LSM..his tutorial already ended..oppss..1st time skip tutorial..so..we go down again..n prepare for the worst of APM..

2day APM presentation was...a..disaster??..haiz...maybe was too nervous..as there is a cam in front of us..we did not do very well..but..is ok..cause...everything is over!!

the most funny part is the dog key chain that me n er jie got from edward..had a "ah-Gong"!!n that is "Gou Xian"!!ha..that was se hao...so we actually act out a scene..where the dog take ang bao from him..i just took his wallet away..n took out the money in it..share with er jie's dog...ha...was super funny..n we were like laughing n playing when others r presenting..we never return him the money even after lesson ended..ha..somemore..i kept the $10..which hang around with my dog key chain..ha..er jie return hers to "gou xian"..while i still play with him..cause was super fun...ha..we never go PYM lecture too..oppss..ha..instead..we went to Canteen 3 to eat..n i still refuse to return se hao's money..

i secretly pass the money to er jie..n we continue to eat...while se hao is still pestering us to return the $$..cause he said the money is for our "Ah-Ma" to eat lunch de..ha..so...we have to return him liao..

after that..we separated with er jie..n i followed them to Bukit Timah Plaza..as they r lazy to walk...we actually took a cab to there.n i was sitting at the middle...so when there's a turn..i either lean to jx or ds.haiz..i will never sit in middle again..$3.20...fast 1..

We sitted at the Attitude studio cafe...ben paid for my chocolate milk..n i used my laptop while they went to do their rer project..after that..i do the pym survey result with ben..he talked..n i type..draw the charts..n we r done in less than 1/2 hr..

after that..me n jx took bus home..n we were super tired..i even drop my laptop while sleeping in the bus..

tired day..everything is so packed this weekend..

PIZZA HUT!!

i really like the IS we attending now..except for the doing assignment part..cause the lecturer is a funny guy..will say jokes..n we watch a love moive 2day.."Keeping the Faith"..the whole movie..i only know Ben Stiller..although is draggy..but still ok la..

went to Bukit Timah Plaza to eat Pizza Hut with daryl n se hao..jx not coming cause she rebonding her hair..so..only we 3 went to eat..we saw pierre png there..

i ate chicken ole baked rice..not bad wor..but very cheesy...n that 2 still order drumlets n garlic bread..in the end..garlic bread canot finish..so take away...n they don wan..so that was my dinner...that daryl..super disgusting..use his legs to "seduce" se hao..n when he fails..came to "attack" my legs..so me n se hao each hold a knife n fork..ready to attack back..ha..
we saw li jing mei there too..

we went to do rer assignment..walk the whole shopping centre to write down the tenants names..wa..super hate the whole building la..number all messed up..shops r japalang..can demolish liao la..we then went NTUC Finest to see those ex stuffs they sell..n i bought this dew mineral water with daryl..cause 2 for $3.05..but i only pay $1..ha..

went back JP..n i bought a new formal shirt at Bossini..cause i lazy to sew a button for the 1 i bought in Bukit Timah ..anyway..i need to buy many many formal wear this CNY..haiz..no nice clothes for me liao..i haven buy my new clothes yet lor!!!argh..everyday go back home do projects n projects..sianz..

great laughter day!!

recently..really no mood in blogging..but..if i don give myself a break..i will go mad!!!my mind now is apm..apm..APM!!argh!!

2day lesson was short..cause ended at 2p.m...but..2day was super fun n enjoyable..
morning--went the Reflections at the Keppel Bay..SUPER NICE!!i don feel like going back sch le lor..being rich is so good!!their 2-room unit cost $2++m..3-room cost $5++m..n 1 superior 1 cost 10++m!!arrrr!!i could only say..wa...wa...wa..WAWA!!their toilet was supr nice la..where got transparent toilet so nice de..somemore u shower out..is wardrobe!!arrrr..

anyway..this is only dream..must live back to reality..haiz..ds was super funny..when we r at canteen 3..he say he don wan to eat..cause he wan to save $ to buy Reflections!realy siao sia..he will died of hunger before even save 1% of the $ lor..

after that ..we went for RER tutorial..that AG!!super annoying la..came n disturb our class..n wan to be the moderator..ask Q..he own self ans own self laugh??siao..

Funny part is when the guys wanted to take video for APM..they were acting..n we were kay-po-ing..suppose ben be the poor fashion sense guy..but we think that ds is more suitable..n truely..we discover his talent!!hahahaa..
"wo shi kia kia!!"hahahaha..we 3 girls burst out laughing..n is truely..BURST OUT..uncontrollable la..our laughter still in the video too..

we went to convection to see them take the next scene..that was funny too..ds became a very "handsome" guy n somemore..wan me n er jie act as if we really saw a handsome guy de expression..wa..canot..me n er jie NG..n we never in the scene..cause..i really canot stop laughing!!ha...ds even posed for pics..ai yoh,..never see him so high before de leh..

ytd nite..me n jx need to do our IS assignment..which is..talking to a stranger for 1/2 hr..so..jx tell her friend to add me...i never start 1st..cause i'm waiting for that person to start..ha..n we talked n talked..craps..n it was past 2 hrs??!!i actually chatted with him for 2++ hrs!!to a complete stranger!!somemore is a guy..

2day..my turn to find her my friend to talk to her..n..i found 1..that is...GU GU BIRD!!ha..he was kind enough to help..somemore he said he very nervous..ha..but think they 2 also enjoy talking to each other ba..

2day was really a great laughter day..not a monday blue..

again..

think i really had enough of it..n thanks to Singtel..i got another scolding again..

supposely..i'm having a good time in sch..laughing n joking at craps..watch NPS performance..take free goodies..went IMM for apm project..BUT..everything change after 7.15p.m...

my phone connection really had a problem..or should say..Singtel had a problem..i did not receive calls from my mother at all..n when i reach home..suddenly got le..so..she thought i purposely switch off my phone..i denied..she still accused me..so ..wat can i do?

when i cried..she said i did that for sympathy..hur...as a daughter..i don gain her trust..n thus..she confiscate my phone again..ok..so..is alright..cause i can still live without a phone..n i am more peaceful without her calls too..

if she wan to do until this extent..i will let her do watever she wan..n from now onwards..i shall treat her as a stranger..since in her mind she only have my sis as her daughter..

just that i thought i will be alright after being finished crying..i was wrong..in fact..my disaster continue everytime i reach home..esp 2day...

she accused me for not calling her when i going to go home.even though i got no phone..she insist that i can call her using public phone..???.

i was just telling my sis something..she said why must i shout at her...???i used my normal way to talk..

she wan me to post on newspaper that we are no longer mother n daughter...???..i don have that $ to waste..

when i was squating down picking something..she purposely walked past me n kick me..???..i'm a ball?

i told myself not to cry...but my tears just drop..i cried cause she don trust me..she treat me as free maid..treat me as rubbish..

if she treats me like this everyday..i will really go n die..n i'm serious..cause living in this kind of place will make me go crazy..i don wan to be rubbish..i don wan to be a maid..i don wan to be a coward..i don wan to be nothing...

i feel that my life is meaningless..do i really don deserve to get family love?is that too much to get?
19 yrs..i had never feel warm-ness of this family..is this the punishment that i get from doing too much of evil things?if that so..take me away...

i believe u will not be able to see me much time le..cause..i don know wat i'm going to do the next min..maybe i wil live happier then....

At this point of time...i admit that i'm weak..useless..n worthless...In fact..i feel that my existance in this world is an extra..i feel meaningless in living le..

Cause i came home late..she confiscated my phone..n i knew..this time she treat it real...but i knew this was just an excuse..cause she aim at me since a long time ago.. not using anything that she buy...i can't defend myself..as in front of her..i don have the right...or should say..i am nothing to her..

i think i wasted almost a litre of tears le..since the past few days..she had threw her temper on me very hard..but i still put on a smile in sch..staying happy..but it will be an end after i reach home..n especially 2day..i was so depressed of things that happened to me..that i really intend to die..just jump down.that will be the end...maybe i will be happier..really..

i hate her..n i hate him too...for ignoring all the nuisance she did to me..i was wondering..am i their daughter?maybe they only have 1..but that will not be me..i hate to live in this place..or should say..i hate to live anymore..

maybe she was rite..i am a coward..a useless coward..i am nothing to her..but a worthless burden..

19 yrs..so i was nothing to them at all..19 yrs..i tolerate for so long..n now..i don wan to tolerate anymore..i am really very tired..

Please don be surprised if i die the next day...cause u r not me..u will not understand my situation..i'm just tired..really wan to take a long lasting rest..that no need to wake up forever..

emo emo..

2day was super funny..during lsm..i sit on the chair..as i lean..i almost fell from leaning behind..cause the chair was spoiled..ha..but i still sit on it..n took special care..cause scared will really fall until very jia lat..ha..

n we got free octopus balls from the guys cause i let them copied my lsm notes..ha..earn my breakfast so easily..ha..as we r very sleepy during ABT lesson..i started out with playing hangman woth er jie n ds..ha..n all my ans related to food..

ate prawn mee n 1/2 of roti prata..super full le..so gave my another 1/2 to seok cheng..went to phtocopy stuffs for oiap..went for RER lesson..was very sleepy..but..my mood was super affected by wat daryl said to me..so i was pulling a long face for the whole lesson..we went to find mr sami 1/2 hr before lesson ends..cause also no mood to hear wat lecturer said..sami was not there..so we went to find TCH to help us print stuffs..n we keep suaning n joking with him..ha..sooo fun!!

went to ABT tutorial..super sleepy..luckily time pass quite fast..ha..purposely ignored the guys cause i still very angry..went to library to buy sandwich..but no more le..so er jie showed me the hanger she designed 1st..as that chen le sit beside us..i purposely stand beside him to cover his view..ha..was quite childish i know..ha..just then ..was shocked when some1 used a very low voice to say"hello" to us..then saw it was wei sheng..ha.but we ignored him after saying hello back..ha..n he walked off quietly..went to atrium to buy sandwiches n back to BE-axis for the open house briefing..ds was there too..talked for 1 hr..n we can go off..

was so sleeping while taking the bus..so thought i can sleep for at least 45 mins..BUT..this guy..sitting beside me..don know if he is really tired or wat..sleep until the head keep leaning towards me..n is many times..almost touched me..i used my hands to push him back..n again..n again..was so annoyed that i squeezed myself until i only sit little on the chair..but..he can actually wake up before his stop..although he sleep so deeply??!but luckily he alight..if not i will have to sit until so terribly until i reached boon lay..but i already had no mood in sleeping le..$..^&&@@...

life is meaningless to me..

2day was super mood swing..excited at the beginning to dissappointment at last..why?here i tell the story..

me n hui yun went to find mr sami regarding to oiap stuffs...we r confirmed posted to HK...n we knew the company that we r going to work at there...but the most important thing is we need to settle the application of visa thing by tml..

went violin prac cause got performance on sun..but i think i canot go ba..we went alumni clubhouse to eat dinner..but me, er jie n zhen qi were super full..don know why..so me n er jie shared 1 seafood hor fun..but it was not nice de..cause got those "cao da" smell..eee..zhen qi even never finish 1/2 of her fried rice..

super irrited by shaun..i also don know why..others ask me why colour my hair..i will reply them nicely..but when he asked..i started to suan him..ha..

prac was not fun at all..n i had to leave at 8.30p.m..cause need to reach home by 9.30p.m...n there goes my dissappointment..my phone don know why don have connection at 10++p.m...but my mother think that i never go prac..n i purposely switch off phone n refuse to pick up her call..when actually i received none..i explanied to her..but she think that i was shooting back to her..she forced me to hand her my phone..haiz..she don even trust her own daughter..wat can i say?

eventually..all these started up cause she having quarrel with my father...n thus..se throw her temper on me..n i became the victim..last time..i will not hate my father..but i don know why..i hate him ytd..cause he started up this nuisance with her..but when she throw temper on me..he never help me to settle at all..n he even went to sleep!argh!i hate this kind of family..why am i so unfortunate to be born here?

i had such a unresonable mother..i keep thinking that why she can't just trust me at all?am i not her daughter?am i a maid to her?that she can throw her temper on me?i started to cry while i wanted to sleep..cry until my whole body trembles..i suddenly feel myself very weak..canot control my emotion like last time..i was such a loser..i promised myself not to cry even get all these treatments from her..but..i failed..at that point of time..i feel like rushing out of the door..away from this place..away from this haunted house..BUT..i still didn't..cause i can only continue to study if i stay..

As i cried..my nose r blocked..n i can't breathe at all..i started to think..if i can't breathe now..will i die like this?i really tried not to breathe..cause i find my life very meaningless..why not just die like this?everything will be settled..i will forever not hear her scolding..no need to do housework..no need to bother about everything..i stop breathing for 1/2 min..n i started to feel restless..n i sit up..blow my nose..n think again..maybe i should carry on my path..n not ending like this..cause i still have others who cared for me..showing me concern n care..n is them..who pulled me up..so..i shall be staying happy n laugh as i wan to..cause i deserve it..

funny IS..

2day i wake up late again..but not purposely de..cause..my alaram clock was slower by 1 hr!!ha..i thought i wake up at 6a.m..but whe i went out the living room..was shocked to see the time..7a.m!!arrr..i faster wash up n change clothes..n i leave the house within 15 mins..ha..but i just realised that actually i no need to rush..cause..i taking train..zzz..

thus..i reach sch earlier than jiaxin..ha..ni met lian kai at cheers while i buying food..just as i went out..i realised i never bring water bottle..so i went back to buy..n se hao came..lastly jiaxin..we went separate ways for lesson..

2day lesson was so funny..lecturer shared many jokes n stories with us..n we tried speed dating..ha..but we r speechless after indtroduction..ha..

did apm discussion at atrium after IS..n we went back to JP to take some pics related to it..there's the end of my day..

argh!!abt model..

2day had a long break..from 2-5p.m...so me n er jie stayed at blk 35 de dolphin tables to do..n eventually i thought need to cut the arcylic..don know wat daryl n se hao did..the actually fit in it into my external walls..but there r stil mistakes..cause i did not bring much papers n board..we can't do anything..so we chat for that few hrs..ha..

n ds, benjamin n amanda also doing theirs at the table behind us..ds don have anything de la..lend from me 2 pencils, 1 long ruler, 2 scissors, 1 pen knife..i wonder if i not there how they do their work??ha...ds owed me many things ar..must return by doing the pym assignment..ha..

lian kai n seok cheng also joined in..n lastly daryl..we went n disturbed them..ha..cause nothing to do..

our model was almost done..just that need to redo 3 walls..hopefully can done it finish by next week..

1st visit to hospital..

2day jiaxin went to operation..me n er jie went to look n see her after our sch ends at 11a.m...

cause was still early..we went to eat at bukit timah hawker centre with ds n benjamin..ds was super ah peh..still order "teh-O"..n say early in the morning must drink kopi or teh-O..

me n er jie ordered wan ton mee..n ds was back to ah peh again..keep giving comments.."why not eat the veges?...why must twist the chopsticks?...why eat the wantons last?...so many comments..just like father nagging to children like that..ai yoh..

n er jie realised she forgot to go SDAR..so we need to go back sch again..n ah peh nagged again..say why don take bus?...why must walk to sch?..we just ignored him n say bye..ha..

back to SDAR to find edward..he's back from hk..n wat he bought from hk is packs of doggies, 10 in a pack..at HK10..zzz..me n er jie "kam-po" 1 each..ha..n he keep say i always make a nuisance at his table..actually is his things fragile lor..

took bus no.61 to queensway..along the journey..although i very sleepy..i dare not sleep.. cause scared forgot to alight..n er jie canot tahan..so she fall asleep very fast..ha..we stopped at queensway shopping centre to see shoes n also look for flowers..the security guard there was so rude..i only ask got place sell flowers ma?he said don have..n when i wan to ask him how to go AH..before i say 1/2 of my sentence..he keep say nonono..idiot..

actually AH was just beside the shopping centre..but it looked so "wu-loo" outiside..we bought a bear for jx!!n a card that i made..2gether with greetings from us n the guys..canot find where she stay..so we walked around..just then..js msg me..we were shocked..cause is like so "qiao"..ha..n the nurse was saying another ward..so..being unsure..er jie said we looked at the ward the nurse said..cause jx might have typing error..

in the end..the ward was a guy..so we really believe wat jx said is rite..we found the right ward..saw jx..was super heart-pain to see how painful she was..but we got no ways to cheer her up..so can only talk to her...n make her feel more relaxed..her other friends came too..n we all like jx's nurse..pass her water..tissue n all other things..we left after 2 hrs..cause i need to get home by 6..was relieved to see jx was well n able to talk n repeat same story for times..ha..

full full..

2day is my very 1st time saw da jie after so long!!haha..

got violin prac as usual..n i really had no interest to go prac le..so restless liao..haiz..went alumni clubhouse to eat dinner..with da jie, casilda, gaynes n chris..

our sitting arrangement was quite weird..n somemore i did silly thing..i tend to crawl out under the table..n not only once..is many times..i also don know why..maybe is weird to ask chris to let me walk pass..since he sitting beside me n doing his work..we ordered many food..main course for every1..i ate fried rice..n we ordered side dishes..fries n shrimp paste chicken..da jie still blur blur thought is chicken paste shrimps..zzz..ha..

prac was quite slack..there goes another day...

start of sch!=((..

sianz..i haven even enjoy my holidays well..n there's the end..but 2day PYM is e-learning..so actually we only need to go for 1 hr APM lecture at 2p.m...but...cause we haven start our APM assignment..me, er jie n jiaxin meet at 10a.m in sch to do discussion...n around 12++..ds n ben came so we discuss our PYM assignment..effran was there too..doing his work..

manage to distribute jobs to er jie n jiaxin regarding apm..n we need to start working..cause time is running out..

1st day of sch at 2008 just added like this ...nothing special at all..