just that i thought i will be alright after being finished crying..i was wrong..in fact..my disaster continue everytime i reach home..esp 2day...

she accused me for not calling her when i going to go home.even though i got no phone..she insist that i can call her using public phone..???.

i was just telling my sis something..she said why must i shout at her...???i used my normal way to talk..

she wan me to post on newspaper that we are no longer mother n daughter...???..i don have that $ to waste..

when i was squating down picking something..she purposely walked past me n kick me..???..i'm a ball?

i told myself not to cry...but my tears just drop..i cried cause she don trust me..she treat me as free maid..treat me as rubbish..

if she treats me like this everyday..i will really go n die..n i'm serious..cause living in this kind of place will make me go crazy..i don wan to be rubbish..i don wan to be a maid..i don wan to be a coward..i don wan to be nothing...

i feel that my life is meaningless..do i really don deserve to get family love?is that too much to get?
19 yrs..i had never feel warm-ness of this family..is this the punishment that i get from doing too much of evil things?if that so..take me away...

i believe u will not be able to see me much time le..cause..i don know wat i'm going to do the next min..maybe i wil live happier then....