At this point of time...i admit that i'm weak..useless..n worthless...In fact..i feel that my existance in this world is an extra..i feel meaningless in living le..

Cause i came home late..she confiscated my phone..n i knew..this time she treat it real...but i knew this was just an excuse..cause she aim at me since a long time ago.. not using anything that she buy...i can't defend myself..as in front of her..i don have the right...or should say..i am nothing to her..

i think i wasted almost a litre of tears le..since the past few days..she had threw her temper on me very hard..but i still put on a smile in sch..staying happy..but it will be an end after i reach home..n especially 2day..i was so depressed of things that happened to me..that i really intend to die..just jump down.that will be the end...maybe i will be happier..really..

i hate her..n i hate him too...for ignoring all the nuisance she did to me..i was wondering..am i their daughter?maybe they only have 1..but that will not be me..i hate to live in this place..or should say..i hate to live anymore..

maybe she was rite..i am a coward..a useless coward..i am nothing to her..but a worthless burden..

19 yrs..so i was nothing to them at all..19 yrs..i tolerate for so long..n now..i don wan to tolerate anymore..i am really very tired..

Please don be surprised if i die the next day...cause u r not me..u will not understand my situation..i'm just tired..really wan to take a long lasting rest..that no need to wake up forever..