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2day supposely can go out with da jie for meeting up n shopping..haiz..so suay..my sis was sick during last midnight..vomitted..n whole family woke up..don know why..my mother get so worried when she's sick..n when i am..she will just say don die at home..n she blamed me for buying "dirty" food for her to #$%^&**^%#$%^&..

So i never get any enough sleep at all..have to wake up early to take sis to see doctor..so she got food poisoning..same as me that day when i went vivo..but that time.i struggled myself from vivo back to home...i was alone at home..almost fainting n dying..n nobody at home knows that i am sick that day..unlike 2day...haiz..i really think that me n my sis have different position at home..she's treasure n i am like..a maid?...forget it..i also don wan those concern at all..

I was wondering..when will it be a day that i will come out from this kind of home?a so called "home" with no warmess at all..although i always have things that i wan..but it just lack of something..love?concern?freedom?i don know whether i really need all of them..but at least i wan freedom..i really don wish to stay at home everyday..n even though i can go out..i must lied to her that i going back sch for projects..sianz..

Can't bother anymore..just hope that day will come sooner or later..