MaTerialisTic WorLd

2008-04-26T12:49:00.001+08:00

hur hur..i decided to change to live journal for the time being..for a new start..

http://clarica-jiaxue.livejournal.com/

Ocean Park Visit...

2008-04-18T23:58:00.000+08:00

i have never ever been so crazy than 2day...cause..i never even been to Escape themepark..n here i am..in Ocean Park..which is more scary...n i couldn't believe that i actually got courage to play those rides..i played almost every ride with others except the Abyss--freefall..i thought i can play it in the 1st place..but then..i got my limits..

we get to meet other 2 NP students who came to hk for attachment too..janice n yi ting..as yi ting is freda's friend..they r very friendly girls....

i shall intro the rides that i took..

Space Wheel--1st game already so scary...the wheel will turn from flat to 90 degree..which was like astronaut..u can feel that ur body is floating..hair is raising up..n the world is rotatin..ha..i don dare to open my eyes n see..even though the scenary is nice..

Raging River--i start to scream before the boat get vertical drop..as i sitting the 2nd seat..so i also wet alot..as we got 4 ppl..the splash is sup big..n we got super wet..but still..we laughed like siao..

flying swing..suppose to be a very fun ride cause we will be sitting in a swing..BUT...it will turn n turn..higher n higher..i was screaming when it start turning higher..so scared until don dare to open my eyes..

Ferris Wheel--24m high..able to see nice view..n at the same time..i'm still scared..cause of the upcoming rides..

The Dragon--roller coaster..i got forbia in taking that..n i refuse to play at 1st...but in order not to disappoint others..i went up..n i regret after taking it..was super scared of it..i start to scream n yelled when it start to go down..make rounds n rounds of turning..360 degree!!n i grabbed handle until my hand bruised..was already no strength at all when get down..

Crazy Galleon--Pirate Ship..this was the 1 that make me feel uncomfortable..cause worse..i sitting at the last row..however..my timing of screaming is diff from others..i scream when boat went high while others scream when it went down..was very scared..cause i can feel that my butt is floating..after get down the ship..i already feeling unconscious..emotionless n no strength to speak at all..that's why i forgo Abyss..cause i knew i canot take it anymore..if i really try..i will faint there..definitely..

Took the cable car down the Ocean Park..n we did a funny thing..although i was still scared..as the cable car will jerked at some points..the littlegirl n her father of the car infront of us..will start to make funny sounds..like "eerrr...eerrr"..we think is very funny n so we followed too..n we "eerr..eerrr" at every point..ha...

went to see pandas!!OMG!!so cute!!adorable la..got 安安，嘉嘉，乐乐 n 盈盈 ...

last stop..hot air balloon..surprisely..i not scared of this..maybe cause there r wires n ropes around..n it looked quite safe to me..i even start to console yi ting..ha..n get suan by zi pei..

However..everything was fun there..n i did enjoyed myself..had enough of screaming n yelling..

after finished the Ocean Park trip..we got a problem..cause we canot decide where to go next n where to eat..ha..but then...in the end..we ate steamboat at Hong Hum..which is near where we lived..just behind the apartment only..as steamboat will only start at 8.30p.m..we slacked at home a little..n landlord told the girls hw to go back their hm from here..luckily..

8.30p.m...went back the steamboat restaurant..the attendants there ar..so rude la..cause they thought we don know canto..then talk sth on us..we just ignored..we keep order n eat..but the order came so late..the soup was tasteless at 1st...but after dumping many ingredients in..we kept say the soup is nice..esp me..freda n janice..ha..we 3 have been eating non stop..jia lat...

birthday celebration...

2008-04-17T13:46:00.004+08:00

2day is birthday celebration for the boss of Kai Shing Management..Jimmy Wong..seeing him for the 1st time..he was also Singaporean..he always put on a smile when he talked..so funny..the whole management staffs gather to celebrate for him..large crowd!..n need to take 3 rounds to take gp pic with him..ha..
pick up courage to ask to take gp pic with him after waiting for quite long..ha..

last day in apm..

2008-04-12T21:51:00.002+08:00

Last day in apm..start from the left..Toni..Michelle..Dacy..our angel..ha..n maggie..
left is Cindy, assistant property n facilities manager..n on the right..Dickie..Senior property n facilities manager..

Fion, also the assistant property n facilities manager...

xiao mei in hk!!

2008-04-08T23:45:00.016+08:00

xiao mei was in hk!!but he was super pathetic..cause he was super sad about his hk trip..all lies cause he n his friends never plan the trip well..but i think he still enjoyed ba..hopefully?ha..
so we took him to the Japanese Street that is behind our hse..we never realise got this place until the end of last mth...

so we went 1 of the Jap restaurant n have our dinner...

then we walk to Whampo Jusco..that xiao mei..suddenly walked to me n asked "is Jerrico a supermarket?"...i keep wondering wat was that..then i realised..he was refering to Jusco..faintz..blur sotong..

n we went Hong Hum Ferry Terminal to see night scene..suppose to be a romantic place..but don know why..with wrong ppl again..ha..

walking for quite long distance back n forth..was quite strange..cause all keeping so quiet.no topic to talk about..weird..ha..
was talking for awhile before sending xiao mei to the bustop..n we busy taking pics too..he was still very sad before leaving..ha..poor him..

randomly took this weird pic..as requested by xiao mei..

neo-print at mongkok...

2008-04-07T23:56:00.003+08:00

the 4 of us took neo print at Mongkok..finding hard for this shop..ha...

Lautau Island visit...

2008-04-04T23:51:00.007+08:00

we went Lautau Island to see the Budda..2gether with er jie's friends..freda n zi pei..took this cable car..super scary..although is fun...cause..read from newspaper that this cable car always have problems..luckily..that day don have...ha..

super high sia..

some ppl choose hiking instead of taking cable car..don know when they will reach the destination..

watching the show--Walking with Budda..with special headphone..

super super loooong staircase..but still..worth it..cause up there..nice scenary n strong winds!!ha..

all messy hair..thanks to the strong wind..

nice, cooling dou hua..esp after climbing that so looong staircase..

Cable car back to real land..ha..i was totally emo for the whole journey..cause..still very scared..

dinner at 别府。。。

Jimmy Wong Exhibition...

2008-04-04T22:30:00.002+08:00

We went to see Jimmy Wong Exhibition at Times Square..

end of Disneyland visit...n fireworks!!

2008-04-03T22:04:00.002+08:00

Going back..to the Real Life..ha..exhausted..

Bye to DisneyLand...

Disneyland...

2008-04-03T19:03:00.001+08:00

To be continued with more pics..

i really find Disneyland a nice place to go..maybe i really have low IQ..but..everything was fun there!!esp the fireworks!!gosh!!i going to upload the pics later..so nice!!

i keep wa..wa..wa..don know how many times..n was quite romantic actually..but too bad..sitting beside me is not my bf..but is er jie..haiz..must go there once more in my life to watch the fireworks again..to ALL!!this is the place that u all must come n watch the fireworks!!esp with ur loved ones!!or..u will regret..really..

the most scary is the roller coaster..although it seems to be meant for kids..i scream like siao throughout..cause..i scared i will fall down..i know it was quite stupid..but..i really scared..my hands n legs r numb when i get off..er jie still wan to sit once more..faintz..

tarzan's treehouse...

High School Musical performance..by non-original actors n actresses..ha..

was being asked to do the same pose as them...but i don look elegant like them..haiz..n they r so pretty..

so happy that i can sit on it..cause i never try before..so fun!! ARR!!merry-go-around!!

Teacups!!don know when was the last time i sit on this..

the Micky Mouse train to the Magical Land...

toilet bowl restaurant visit...

2008-04-02T18:31:00.002+08:00

we finally get to eat this meal..after thinking of it for don know how many days..n it was a long queue..we r like waiting for 1/2 hr outside just to eat shit ?ha..

erjie is eating shit!!?ha..

the shit ice cream..

last day in gyp...

2008-04-01T16:19:00.001+08:00

last day at GYP..took pics with almost every1...except our supervisor..don know why..i just refuse to..ha..oppss..

with Clara, don know her much..eric n Raymond..the big post in th MO..

Ricky..the only funny guy we met..esp his old photo..i laughed at it for so long when he showed us..i was bad..i know..

nice girls in the MO..Ah Ling, Judy, n Esther..

the guy beside me..Jacky..really look like Jackie Chan..esp his nose..ha..

apm..

2008-03-31T22:53:00.000+08:00

盈1st day of work at apm..a shopping arcade at Kwan Tang..we r posted to work in the office tower..as we r super early on the 1st day...we sitted at the lift lobby for 1/2 hr..
as the time getting closer to 9a.m..more ppl came for work..n there is actually queues made to take the lifts..luckily..we don have to..cause the lifts we took r separated from the others..maybe also cause is only 16th floor..office tower is separated into 2..lower levels belonged to the management..upper levels belonged to the Bank of East Asia..

when we r in the office..
the staffs there r not really very friendly..esp 1 of them..gave me that stared eye look..but there is only 1 girl..who gave us a big smile..so we call her..ANGEL!!ha...
we went to site visit on a nearby commercial development by another developer..n also to Millennium City Tower 1 n 6..there r total of 6 towers..the tower we working at is Tower5..complicated...somemore..they r not allocated near each other..still have to walk a long way..

my lunch!!grilled eel rice..in foodcourt..there r many nice food in foodcourt that make us difficult to choose..of course..their price not cheap too..n r mostly jap food..

was shivering while took these pics..cause we r at the roof garden..somemore..rain quite heavily..strong winds..n extremely cold weather..

This look like those big company photo har?大征仗ha..n we r fortunate to be in this pic..was taken after the end of the site visit..2gether with other staffs..

k session!!

2008-03-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

we used hrs on previous night to decide on wat to wear,..quite foolish..but was quite funny too..used quite long to wear the stocking..keep pull n pull..so scared will make 1 hole sia..decide so long..n finally choose wat we wearing..

but..it was super weird for us to wear this out on the next day..feel like rushing back home n change to jeans..got many ppl stared at us on the streets..

we went the K session in hk!!n it was so shiok!!why??cause we sang from 2-8p.m!!n...most importantly.. free flow n self-service of drinks n tidbits!!we ate like siao..n sing like siao..at only hk$76 per person..

after that we went to take neo-prints..was quite cheap too..hk$30.. cause there r 2 cameras..1 at below..1 at centre..we don know where start..so was quite blur in the 1st place..but luckily..outcome is nice..n we got limited time to draw..sad..

Leighton Hill...

2008-03-29T22:59:00.001+08:00

Our 2nd working place..Leighton Hill..the high class residential..that provide hotel services..cause they got the concierge at every tower..total of 8 towers..all rich ppl lived there..in front is the horseracing club..soccer club n cricket club..all the ang mohs will go there..

Only 3 out of many took this pic with us..Michael, Veena, our supervisor, n Terry..

softshell crab..bought nearby our working place..at hk$18 for 2..considered cheap..

Leighton Hill also have clubhouse..n provides gym room...
karaoke room..

function room...

slacking in changing room..

our working uniform..sth funny happened..when we r trying our uniform sizes...i don know my skirt size..so i anyhow say is size 29..auntie don believe..she gave me size 27..when i try..is super loose..luckily i never try size 29..ha..

n we canot find a suitable coat..cause auntie said our hands too long..not like hk girls..haiz..

This shows how slack we r..taking pics in the control room office...n we were watching tv on the 1st 2 days in control room training..haiz..

if we r lazy to go out n eat lunch..we can buy lunchbox at hk$15..includes a drink..some taste nice..but some r not..

carpark ramp...car need at least 2 mins to go down..

the outdoor swimming pool..only open on 1st April..

the horseracing field..with soccer field,rugby field in the middle..

at the podium...

we r fortunate to be able to see a vacant unti at the tallest level..level 39..called Director's House..big!!

the Peak n WAx Museum Visit...

2008-03-29T00:47:00.001+08:00

WAO!!Ladies..don get high..ha..

the peak tram...

in the wax museum...
Jay Zhou is so short..

AAAaaRRRrrr!!ANDY LAU!!OH MY GOSH!!handsome sia..faintz..ha..as no chance to see real person..seeing the wax also not bad..can stand closer to take pics..ha..

realise how tall he is..i can see his armpit hair..ha...

At the peak terrace...

Wong Da Sin Temple Visit...

2008-03-20T23:49:00.001+08:00

we went the wang da sin temple..n had fortune telling!!my 1st time getting palm reading..wat i heard were mostly positive..that makes me quite suspicious..

here is wat she said:

-I will have a long life..at least 80++ yrs old..i burst out laughing..cause..don really believe this..

-I will have 2 love relationships..

-I will have 3 kids..a mix of boy n girl..

-I will have a good career..maybe 2..

-I am respectful to parents n very obedient..

-I like to think too much..

-I have a clever brain..but still need to put in effort in studying..

-must take care of my digestive problems..don eat too much cold food..

happy shooting!!

2008-03-14T00:47:00.001+08:00

gyp...

2008-03-13T22:49:00.020+08:00

we wearing uniforms!!ha...

Omy gosh..i touch Andy Lau's hand!!ha..

Victoria Harbour...

Xin Guang Da Dao...

2008-03-13T20:18:00.029+08:00

*Xin Guang Da Dao*

inside the theatre..watching --Exploring the Black Hole...

stars in the 'egg shell'!!

We going the Space Museum...

ARRrr!!i got killed...

A carnival...for coming Olympics 2008..

Snoopy!

the Peanuts...

Closer view of the cute boy...super charming sia..

Us outside the Snoopy bus..

Oh my gosh...this boy is super cute..got pose de leh...n his father was like a pro photographer..cute..

waiting to see doc...

Us with Yu Hua, landlord's niece..

Musical fountain at New Town Plaza...

Mac's grilled chicken burger..nice..why s'pore don have sia?

dinner cook by us..

pics!!

2008-03-12T20:58:00.029+08:00

slacking in office..

1st dinner cook by both if us..bot very tempting..but is nice hor..

suppose to help out do filing..but it was very boring n tiring job..so we give up..

Breakfast..made by us too..

fishball noodles..quite nice actually..

they got skating place too...

At Festival Walk..a shopping mall..

there i am..at the hse door..

We shop here after work..
Busy HK street...

KFC!!!very diff from s'pore..n it was..tasty..n their burger was juicy..really got juice come out 1 hor..

Our small room...

Swings!!wanted to sit...but cause got supervisor around..haiz..sad..

View from the podium garden...

DA JIE!!UR Escalator Prince!!!ha....**vomit**...that's our supervisor..

At New Town Plaza...

Our dinner..a more decent looking meal..although the zhu chang fen r quite tasteless...

look familiar?

supposely it is a arcade...

tour to LangHom Place..a shopping mall..

Interior look of GYP..

lunch treat from our supervisor..suppose to be very grateful..but after that...

Lift Lobby..

In the lift..very grand-looking..

We thought that we will be working in the head office..but on the 1st day..

We are currently been posted to Grand Century Place(GYP) for 2 wks attachment..supervisor is called Frankie..he's a....ai yer..skip that...we will then go to a high end residential called the Leighton Hill for another 2 wk..n then to another mall...

Days in GYP was quite slack..cause...everyday...either slack in small office..or hear the supervisor talk the same thing..repeat n repeat..like a lullaby..haiz..n i always fall asleep in the room..or while he's talking..n worse..he wan us to have eye contact with him..argh..1st few days were tiring too..cause we need to tour around the mall n other malls..with my heels...n my poor feet r screaming for help le..

i shouldn't be complaining..but..i can't stand it..luckily..few days more..n we will be another place..but..we still get to talk to some other department heads..there r good ppl too..at least...

our lunch...pathetic...

Whampoa Shopping Plaza...

Victoria Harbour...

morning street...

1st breakfast..

off to hk...

2008-03-01T22:38:00.000+08:00

finally...was the day to go hk...went airport taking cab with jx..that driver ar..don know is purposely or wat...took a longer way to go airport..haiz...was reached quite early..n mr wu came after that..so we sit beside a cafe n waited..slowly..for the time to come..

quite many ppl came..da jie n gangs..then is cas, iris n gaynes..n daryl, se hao n his gf...

took this gp photo before we check-in..was quite sad actually..don know why...

anyway..goodbye to every1 in s'pore..n see u all in 2 mths time!!

1st march 2008...

2008-03-01T00:28:00.000+08:00

To Be Continued...

special signage in the bus...

HK AirBus..

at the Hong Kong International Airport..

express bus to airport terminal..

evening..

outside view..

in the plane..

gp pic with strings ppl..

decent pic..

Raintree Bang meeting..ha..

the GRC...

the Leap Year..

2008-02-29T22:10:00.005+08:00

Had our "class gathering" cum "farewell dinner" for us..before we go hk..n where got ppl going off then she herself ask others sfor dinner de?that's me..ha..

wasabi prawn..

potato wedges

shokudo style pasta...

tofu cheesecake..

2008-02-23T22:32:00.002+08:00

歌手：锦绣二重唱

明天也要作伴

哪天你想要闪电结婚

请先帮我找一个好男人

别一个人去幸福不理人

哪天你不小心就变成女强人

哪天你已变成女强人

别忘了是我劝你要认真

我会记得你劝我要认真

无论再忙都要陪我聊聊心声

我永远记得今晚

我们回忆往事梦想未来感动聊不完

明天心也要作伴也要勇敢

不管是否天涯两端

只要是情意够长缘就不短

常常联络不准懒散

明天心也要作伴也要自然

就像现在真诚简单

有事你要人商量

我最喜欢欢迎找麻烦...

slacking..but not happy at all...

2008-02-23T21:33:00.002+08:00

argh!!
to me..2day n ytd was like "du re ru nian"...although only 2 days pass, i think is like 1 week gone liao..cause i really can't find anything to do..except hsework..

i had iron my whole row of clothes 2day..in fact..is almost all my clothes..n my father's..time is really running slow to me..maybe cause i don have things to do ba..

although i'm very free now..i am not happy at all..in fact..i think that for the past 2 weeks of studying..although is tough n struggle to all of us..i still think that i enjoyed my time..esp with all my dearest friends around..crapping n talking nonsense when we r suppose to be studying...haiz...

i have to admit..i start to miss all of them le..although i only never see them for 2 days..jia lat..how am i going to miss them for the next 2++mths??i miss them more than i miss my family la...n perhaps wat my mother said is rite..i care for my friends more than care of my sis...

even after i come back from hk...i think our bonding will not be as strong as now..as we will sure feel awkward de..since never see each other for so long..haiz...pretty sad..can our friendship really last?cause to my past experience..my friendship with my "friends" is no longer than 1 yr..pathetic..i think i don have the skills to maintain long-term friendship ba...

i shall go emo for the next few days..being able to adapt my life with no friends around again..except with the acc of er jie...

but i think...i can't..

cause...

i need them.....

visa visa..haiz...

2008-02-22T21:28:00.000+08:00

went back sch for oiap breifing..out of our disappointment..our visa r still not approve yet..which means...we might delay our flight to hk..we might start oiap later..come back later..start iap later..end later..argh!!all cause they wanted our savings book record?got link ma?

don think we can enjoy our time fully..cause we r to do reports n logbook at hk n at s'pore..me n er jie were totally blur on wat we r suppose to do..just wait when the time comes ba...

so rite now..i can do nth..but to wait for them to reply..

ABT exam...at last!!

2008-02-21T23:27:00.002+08:00

FINALLY!!last day to study at mac...faintz..now see mac really scared le..n again..never study much..talk more than study..nana, se hao n lian kai came early..n jx the latest...in fact..i had studied finish le..cause i can ans every Q that se hao tested..so was quit relieved..

went back canteen 1 to eat lunch n continue study...slack until before exam starts...exam is at convection centre..super many ppl..was so anxious for the paper..but luckily..i am able to ans most of the Qs...just that got a few careless mistakes..

phew!!exams over le!!although was quite relieved n happy..at the same time..lost...cause..don know wat i am going to do after these..official last day of sch for year 2...haiz...1 more year n we r going to graduate..i really don wan to graduate so fast..cause i really enjoy my time in sch with my dear friends n classmates..rather than go out work..

went to the family clinic at Pioneer Mall for the flu vaccination..while waiting for my turn..went to acc jx to see her doc..argh..the needle was not pain..but the pain came after that..pain sia..

1 more week n i off to hk..should i be happy?

faintz...

2008-02-20T22:43:00.000+08:00

i meeting lian kai n se hao at 7a.m to study at JP mac!!!7a.m!!as i think they r very serious about it..so..i agreed..n...i wake up at 7a.m!!ha..they reached when i wake up..but i also reached the mrt control station within 15 mins..

we actually bought old chang kee de fried noodles to mac cafe...n eat there...n we started studying..but..only after 2 topics..i fall asleep...n is really asleep..so did se hao..lian kai more pro..never start at all..we drag n drag..study n study...until 11++a.m..n we give up...so we went up arcade to paly!!ha..so fun!!n i got a mickey plush toy as is free when they top up the amt for the playing card...

we waited for jx to come n we had lunch at kopitiam...n i had my favourite..mee goreng!!

after that we went back mac cafe to study..was very stressed until i canot absorb anything at all..so i intend to give up..while others r still studying...n nana came to study with us too..after some time..the guys went back arcade to play..n i followed too..play the shooting game..super fun..n although i got the lowest points..i was the last 1 who die..n another funny part is when i use machine gun to shoot the bugs..i actually swing the gun around when actually no need...zzz...haha..

zzz...went back n continue to study...all the way until 8++p.m...until my mother came to spy on me...so i have to go back home..

12 hrs of studying at mac..scary...

APM exam...

2008-02-19T20:36:00.000+08:00

AGAIN....study at KAP mac early morning..with the same ppl..n again..never study much...haiz...

APM exam..hur hur..another hopeless de module..cause i realised i did many things wrongly...but..is ok...cause it ended..n 1 more to go..the most difficult n tedious de..

PYM exam...

2008-02-18T20:35:00.000+08:00

2day wake up at 7a.m to go KAP mac n study when exam was actually at 2p.m....with lian kai, se hao n pc..that pc ar..do the calculations for hrs also haven finish..then jx came late...actually..we never study much...cause we talk more than study...

went back sch atrium to continue "study"...n ate lunch with er jie...i actually talk all the way la..PYM exam was not easy at all..chim Q that i canot ans..anyway..1 exam done..left 2 more to go...

haiz...

2008-02-17T15:34:00.002+08:00

was super touched by the lyrics when i heard this song in radio 2day...don know why..but feel like crying..ha..too sentimental le..

歌曲：会有那么一天

歌手：林俊杰

一九四三世界大战
阿嬷年轻的时候
爷爷爱他那么多
他们感情很深
但是爷爷身负重任
就在离乡的那夜
给了阿嬷一个吻
轻声说到
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

夕阳西下鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看著爷爷湿透的眼
握著他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道
我要离去别再哭泣
不要伤心请你相信我
要等待我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵著手在草原
听鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声我爱你

pics..

2008-02-17T00:01:00.004+08:00

8th feb 2008..movie n steamboat outing with er jie, daryl, lk, se hao n his gf..

9th feb 2008...at gaynes's hse with iris, cas n hui ge..

2008-02-16T21:22:00.002+08:00

i like the lyrics of this song..very real n true enough...
歌曲：擦肩而过

歌手：李圣杰

我爱着谁
爱到我有点醉
告诉我你是谁
能够把我让我变不对
你不会累
但我却爱你爱得好累
从没有为了谁
不顾安危付出一切
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过

你听我说
你不要这么做
你不要看着我
说你已经知道怎么做
你很难受
我愿意陪你一起承受
只要你不怕痛
再多坎坷我都陪你走
站在这平衡点
我还是觉得有点危险
或许是看不见
只能够靠感觉
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
他不会是个好男人
也不会是个好情人
你对我说
我们只是擦肩而过
好的男人有那么多
少了他的日子也能过
我不会再让你寂寞
也不会让你更难过
你听我说
要好好学着去生活
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
就算未来有多少错
至少还有我的问候
我的温柔陪你度过
~~end~~

study...STUDY!!

2008-02-16T20:50:00.004+08:00

Honestly speaking..i have not studied so much before since sem starts...in fact..the time i put in to study for this week is more than the whole sem that i have been..this is the conseqence of not paying attention in lectures n tutorials..haiz...imagine studying all modules within a week..unbeliveable..

mon-study with er jie n jx after our LSM test at myspace@72 LSM paper was ter-rible..study APM till 4++p.m n we went home...

tues -lian kai came to jurong west n study with us..we went mac at 12++p.m...jx came n talk awhile..but really..only awhile..n she never came n join us for study...ai yoh..we start studying ABT..but i fall asleep in between some time..n got disturbed by mr wu..study till 6.30p.m n we went home...

wed-study in sch again..jx n er jie came late..but i finish 1/2 of apm le..so was slacking n study for awhile..n we went home at 4++p.m...

thurs-a memorable valentine's day with..dearest jx n lian kai..i went back sch very early..but jx lazy to come..so meet lian kai to go back mac n meet her..cause can't bear to see her study alone..but i think i just wasting my time..

went back mac at 12++p.m..start study PYM...1/2 way..study until don feel like study..me n lk were so lame..cause we r playing jigsaw puzzle from the LSM notes that jx teared..n we bought chocolates for each other..i bought snacks for them..jx bought ferraro chocolate..lk bought us toblerone white chocolate....fat liao ..oo..n i used the wrapper to make roses for jx..
i need to went back home n fetch my sis..n i went back mac again to continue study..but never..cause we started talking..n sharing each other's thoughts..n i knew more about how they feel of me..i almost cried while talking..n we continue talking until 11p.m!!wa..super long..n we went home after that...

fri-study at mac again,..but 2day...er jie came n find us..n i finish study PYM!!..we went to play the same sharing thoughts game again..but er jie really took a long time to think of us..we studied till 6++p.m n we went home after that..

sat-my turn to go tampines n study with er jie..super far journey..meet at 12++p.m..that jx..say wan to go also..but end up still sleeping..n she wake up at 1++p.m?ai yoh..but..i almost study finish APM le..so we went the foodcourt n eat ramen..n went to er jie's hse to slack..watch tv..n i got 1 more ang bao!!yeah..n i went home at 5.20p.m...reach boon lay at 6.30p.m...sleep all the way throughout the journey...tired..

2 more days to start exam..i really need luck n persistance..

Infractuation?

2008-02-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

i really don know wat to say for 2day..cause..i faced a very strange situation now..maybe i shoudn't ask him the Q in the 1st place..cause..i don know that this was the ans..which was very unexpected..

this was the 1st time got ppl say got interest in me...my reaction..stunned n burst out laughing..cause..i really don believe he will say all that to me..or should say..i never hope for that,..

i believe is either i think too much..or..he "yi shi chong dong"..n think that he was just surprised to wat i am..instead of like..n this feeling will soon disappear de..

is not that i dislike him..just that..i still don get used to the way he treat me..as i feel that is different from last time...

is this considered a confess?i still don feel it rite now..

finally..

2008-02-09T21:56:00.000+08:00

This pic was taken long time ago..by cas..n i finally got it from her 2day..it was when iris came back from korea..which was like super long ago la....n the clip was the gift that she gave to hui ge.. my hair was still black..i tend to like my black hair more..haiz..

entertaining day...

2008-02-09T21:23:00.000+08:00

another long day...

went out at 11a.m to meet hui ge to go bukit panjang 2gether..although he stay at kallang..which was super far..but he still join me to take bus no. 180 to bukit panjang..we reached there on time.12p.m...but not cas n iris..so me n huio ge went mac n i ate my breakfast cum lunch..the 2 came n cas also wan to eat mac..so after finish...

gaynes came to fetch us..n off we go to his hse to bai nian..his hse was at level 25..which was super high..n his neighbour was very funny..cause from outside of the lifet...to corridor..to inside the hse..r full of those rat decorations..

gaynes's mother was a very funny n friendly auntie..she even helped us to take gp pic...tried choco cake backed by gaynes..i was the only 1 never finish it..or not even 1/2 of it..their hse really have a nice view...n full of shampoo bottles..cause his mother collects them..n pinkish kitchen cabinets..n that annoying song detector...wherever we walk past..it will sing the cny song..argh!!

we decided to go tiong bahru to watch movie..we took bus no.960 to bugis 1st...on the way..the bus was so shaking that i wan to vomit..n we stil need to take mrt from bugis to tiong bahru...i was really feeling not well..cause i will vomit anytime..so gaynes help me to carry my plastic bag..

movie was selling fast...so we can only watch at 5.25p.m...as there r many free time..me n iris wan to take neo-print!!ha..

then we went into a japanese noodle restaurant...n they all ate their food..while i never..cause still very full..n i only ate the 2 mandrain orange that get from gaynes's mother..but they said that the food there were very nice..

went to arcade n play awhile before we go in to watch AH LONG PTE LTD!!when we r finding our seats..gaynes was telling me of a woman who look n sound like a man..n we were laughing vry loud..i even canot control myself n burst out laughing when we walk past the stage..ai yoh..pai seh..

i laughed really loudly throuout the movie..n canot control myself..i even complained that i wan to go toilet!!ha..but hui ge n gaynes sitting beside me also laughed very loud leh..as we thought the movie ended..it didn't..n it come out 10 yrs later part..lame ending..

i was so urgent that i ran to the toilet straight after the movie ended..n gaynes still purposely block my way to go out...

n we went to mrt to take train back home..iris supposely went off with hui ge n cas to take the line to raffles place n took the red line herself....but she called gaynes n insist him to go take the red line with her..ha..so poor gaynes canot take the green line with me n have to go find iris..

another very tired day..but i really enjoyed myself for these 2 days..

tired...but FUN!!!

2008-02-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

went out finally!!after 2 days of staying at home..i can be dust liao..
took bus no. 198 n went to daryl's hse at 1++p.m...lian kai was the earliest.. hao just leave his home when we arrived..we 2 went up 1st..n daryl's mother was not around..he was the representative..n we bai nian to him..n he gave us ang bao..super weird...se hao n his gf reached aftr that..er jie was the latest...

i still have to walkall the way to queensway shopping centre to fetch her..as it was drizzling..i asked her to open her ORANGE umbrella...once she opened..we 2 burst out laughing!!ha..after sitting awhile..we took bus no. 197 to bugis to watch CJ7!!aong the journey..i got shocked by lian kai 2 times...n i started to feel angry for the 2nd time..cause it really gave me a shock..as my heart beat very fast...
CJ7 was a super funny movie with the cute "qi-zai"!!

Went to eat tian tian steamboat..super ex...n its ma la soup was so spicy even i only took a sip of it..we were eating very chiong at the 1st place..n start to slow down liao..we so lame until play the number game n loser will finish up the bowl of stuffs..lian kai accidentally spilled the ma la soup towards daryl..poor thing..

i bought yu sheng along..but as canot find place to eat..i decided to pass to jiaxin...we then went arcade to play..as the guys r playing basketball..i 'kop' 2 tokens from them to play the games with er jie..n 'kop' another 3 tokens to play somemore..but we still got pay $1 each to play the shooting game..n lian kai willing to pay for us another 4 tokens to continue play the shooting game..cause i helped him carry his bag...for super long..

lian kai as tina...daryl as eric..playing the silent hill shooting game..me n er jie stand beside n watch...it was a super long game..n i got a shock again..thanks to WU LIAN KAI!!

before we leave..we took a gp pic..with the help of an ang moh uncle..n me n er jie left to go home..while the other 4 went back daryl's hse to play manjong...

before i go home..went to jx's hse to pass her the yu sheng..in the 1st place..i bought it cause i thought we going her hse for steamboat..so i still pass to her..just that is diff ppl eating..

n i reach home at 12a.m!!this is my perfect life without government at home..

2008-02-07T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

May every1 blessed by happiness n prosperity in this coming new year!!

=) (=

new year eve..

2008-02-06T22:52:00.000+08:00

for the past few days..i was emotionless to cny..only until 2day i started to feel the real cny atmosphere..the tv shows..n most importantly..the shops..almost more than 1/2 of the shops r closed..n esp..NTUC n Prime Supermart..it seems like tml is the end of the day..almost all the things r swapped away..all empty..haha..

finally managed to get some groceries to put at home..at least i can make sure that i will not starve myself tml..n also my father..

this morning went back to sch to find edward..but he's not there.ai yer..helped annabel to hand in instructor's fee n music room key..n back to jp de NTUC..n Gek Poh de Prime Supermart..bought many stuffs home...n my lunch was 2 egg prata..cause i canot find any other stalls beside Indian stall...

continue with spring cleaning..n mopped the floor..although not really very neat n tidy..at least better than before..

went out with my father to eat "reunion dinner"..almost all the stalls r closed..but we managed to find a western stall..n so..my reunion dinner was fried chicken wing rice..

eventually..rite now..i am waiting for time to pass..cause canot find anything to do...zzz..but i canot sleep early 2day also..tml sure wake up late de..cause..is very rare that i can sleep late..ha..

27 Dresses..

2008-02-05T20:09:00.000+08:00

2day IS was super short..ended at 10a.m..n somemore lecturer never show the movie that i wanted to watch..After Sunset..but he told us the endong le..n i also knew more about homosexuality..

Since nothing to do..i went back JP de Popular n find if there is any good book...n i ended up reading recipe books..just then..lk msg said his meeting with his friend cancelled..so he's free for movie..n jx just wake up.. at 12++!!after waiting until 1++p.m..jx then reached n she shop for sandals..while waiting for lk..he actually took cab from serangoon to JP..ai yoh..

Watched 27 Dresses...a nice n funny show..n also make us have the eager to get married le..maybe cause see the nice wedding gown..n also the happiness of wedding..but..is still far way to go..
After that went to eat at Kopitiam..i finally get to eat my breakfast-lunch-dinner at 4++p.m...n is my favourite!!mee-Goreng!!acc jx go to Bee Cheng Hiong to buy her pork floss..me n lk got nth to do..n we even tried their pineapple tarts as they put some samples there....i think i fall in love with pineapple tarts liao..ha..

Back home..have to do spring cleaning again...but is still not done!!argh!!my house is really really very messy..

Raintree 帮!!

2008-02-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

The Raintree 帮!haha..

We purposely took this pic as to show that jx is diff from us..n she don know that we never smile..so she's the only 1 with a big smile..while others..r either serious..or hold on their laughter..like me..ha..

The new Body Guards!!ha..center is their Lao Da!! the new assistants..ha..

i took se hao's tie to wear...while er jie took daryl's tie to wear..i keep adjust the tie until very pek chek..cause they all say i'm not correct..ai ya..

We went APM excursion..to those GOLD-CLASS BUNGALOW!!n we were like "wa wa wa" all they way...this is 1 of the house with a long drive way..

This is my dreamhouse!!!i super like this..

We after that went to eat dinner 2gether..as the bus drop us off at Raffles Place MRT there..so we took train to City Hall..n jx took this pic..

We went New York New York for our "advance" reunion dinner..

Lian kai ordered this chicken n prawn combo..

Daryl's chicken steak..

Jx's chicken pasta..

n mine's!!fish n chips..

Managed to go home at around 7++p.m..hear abit my mother nagging...n i started spring cleaning..al the way till 10++p.m!!i was very hungry now..despite full just now..

i hope that i can finish my spring cleaning by tml..then jx they all can come to my house..cause they have been complaning that i never let them enter my house before..

n my father will be staying at home with me during CNY..he even ask me if i know how to cook..he said buy instant noodles better.CNY eat instant noodles??!..haiz..

dilemma...

2008-02-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

perhap..i should be happy that i finally can go hk for oiap..esp with er jie..but in fact..i don know whether i'm really that happy..

The reason i wanted to go hk is cause of my family matter..by going oiap..i will be "officially" off from home..i can don need to go home on time after sch..curfew..n all those scolding nonsense..BUT..i missed those i'm close with..

was quite random..cause i was too overjoyed by going hk stuffs these past few days that i forgot something..my dear friends in singapore..

thus..i'm now in a situation of dilemma..i don know why i suddenly have this kind of feeling..maybe my friends treat me too nice le..nice until i don bear to leave them..if possible..i really wan to bring them all to hk..ha..

maybe is cause we have been very close these few mths..or in fact..this mth..cause we have been working very hard 2gether for projects..assignments..gatherings..n i even celebrate christmas eve n holidays with them for the 1st time..

i was wondering..if they don treat me so nice..maybe i will not feel that bad..but..they will always around me when i'm in sch..acc me when i'm down..cheering me up n give me encouragement..i know i'm too sentimental..cause u might think..there is only 2 mths..but 2 mths..is also not short..besides..after that..we also need to do iap..until 8th august..

BUT..i believe that our friendship will last longer than i thought it will be..as they all stand in a very steady position in my heart..ha..very disgusting..but i really say this very sincerely hor..ha..hope u all also think the same way...

to:
JX---must work hard hor!!come to sch earlier n more often!!don skip anymore le..n also..must learn to do report!!was quite sad that i will not be able to go sch with u for the next 1/2 yr..but we must do so for the last sem ok?

n also..take care of ur health..even though we r not around..we will give u moral support..n u r sure able to pull through all the things happen to u..

Da Jie---
must go violin prac hor!!we still wan to perform for virtuoso for the last time de!!n don always so emo ok?

n to lian kai, daryl, dai seng, se hao, ben, xiao mei, zhen qi, iris, valerie.....n many more..

THANK Q for being my friend..n i will appreciate that..hehe..i was too emotional at these kind of things le..

pics..

2008-02-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

A group pic that we took after PYM lecture..looks like graduating pic sia..but was a well-ordered pic..ha..
We actually took these pics in the Alumni Clubhouse toilet..

KBOX n NEO-PRINTS!!

2008-02-01T21:18:00.000+08:00

The 1st shot was too random..thus except for er jie that show a complete nice face...me was like "stunned"..while lian kai was..still positoning?ha..

2day was super fun n tiring!!haha..

Sch ended at 12p.m...so me, er jie, jx, ds n lian kai went to jurong east entertainment centre to eat our lunch..we slacked n talked until 2p.m..n ds left..we 4 went up to sing KBOX!!!haha..it was such a long time since we last go kbox..n finally..is 2day!!!

we sing many songs 2day..really many..n i started to feel my throat pain when we sang "ci sua sua"!ha...i was super high..or should say...we 3 girls r super high!!ha...n we laughed so much due to some minor things..

we went to take neo-prints too!!but it was super fast...we haven post nice nice..it already "ka-cha" liao..while we taking photos..my mother called...so i went out to find a quiet place t pick up her call..n i went into the staircase route..just after i finish my call..i wan to open the door to go out..BUT..it was locked!!i was so panicked la..n i called jx for help...luckily..if not..n i was laughing so loud after i'm out..ha...

was super tired now...zzz...

pics n pics..of the WHIMSICAL!!

2008-01-31T21:16:00.000+08:00

Old pics...

2008-01-29T23:05:00.000+08:00

There were supposed to be pics taken long time ago..when we r doing the Launch at Clementi Woods Park on 14th Dec 2007(if i did not remember wrongly..ha..)

SHOPPING!!

2008-01-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

2day me n er jie suppose to meet up with daryl n se hao to do rer project..but we didn't..suppose to go violin prac..but we didn't..n we end up..going shopping!!ha..cause CNY is coming..n also our attachment..so we really got many things to buy..but we don have much time..cause we r tied by projects n projects n endless projects..after all done..already need to chiong for exam liao..sianz...

so we meet at ugis to shop for clothes..w start vy going bugis junction..there r clothes that r nice..but was super ex..so actually..everytime we went in a shop..1st thing we do is to see the price tag..haiz..it's been a long time since i went Bugis..n i don know that SEIYU change to BHG?when was it?

The way to cross the traffic light to bugis street ws super duper crowded..we r like squeezing n pushing each other in order to go out of the way..n i will never step into bugis street in weekends anymore..wa..can faint inside leh..we went to bugis village..n went in a shop to try on pants n skirts..we each bought 1..diff design..at $18 each..

then we return to bugis junction de URS n Charles n Keith...er jie canot find her shoes that she liked at URS..when we previously saw it at BHG..but no her size..n i went back C & K to buy a bag for our attachment..at $32..n heels ..at $37..that was the heels i saw at jp..but cause that time no size..so never buy..er jie tried on few heels..but never find any she wan to buy..

The things i bought was in a super big bag..i thought my mother was not at home..so i carried it home..but when i'm in mrt..she called to said she will be at home..wan me buy dinner!!jia lat..if she saw my big shopping bag.she sure knew i spent $$ n went shopping..cause i told her i going do project..so i asked jx for help..as she's not at home..n neither her family members..i left my stuffs in her electrical riser cupboard beside her house door..i was so "da dan"..cause inside cost $87!..if missing..there goes my $$..but luckily..it is now safe n sound in jx's room..luckily she live near me..if not..hur hur..war at home again..

i knew that my mother will no matter wat will know i spent $ on bag n shoes..cause i can't hide from her when i bring them out..BUT..not now..at this very critical situation..i canot take any risk..very dangerous..to my life..n to my phone..cause u will not know the life of being threatened that ur phone will go missing in sec..n most importantly..a "siao" person at home..means.."life's in DANGER!"...

i so terrible..go shopping also must secretly..buy things also must hide..haiz..

nervous n restless...

2008-01-25T13:38:00.000+08:00

This was the 1st time i wearing formal to sch..n it was..really formal..i still canot get used to wearing heels yet..n it was super pain..but don know why..only on the left foot..
met up with jx i early morning..as her friend is fetching her..n suan bian..fetch me too..to sch..wa..walked a super long distance...err..was quite weird sitting in the car..cause was quite pai seh..but..we really save time n walking distance to sch...

we started rehearsal at blk 34 level 3..not very successful...when we wanted to go up n mark our attendance for LSM..his tutorial already ended..oppss..1st time skip tutorial..so..we go down again..n prepare for the worst of APM..

2day APM presentation was...a..disaster??..haiz...maybe was too nervous..as there is a cam in front of us..we did not do very well..but..is ok..cause...everything is over!!

the most funny part is the dog key chain that me n er jie got from edward..had a "ah-Gong"!!n that is "Gou Xian"!!ha..that was se hao...so we actually act out a scene..where the dog take ang bao from him..i just took his wallet away..n took out the money in it..share with er jie's dog...ha...was super funny..n we were like laughing n playing when others r presenting..we never return him the money even after lesson ended..ha..somemore..i kept the $10..which hang around with my dog key chain..ha..er jie return hers to "gou xian"..while i still play with him..cause was super fun...ha..we never go PYM lecture too..oppss..ha..instead..we went to Canteen 3 to eat..n i still refuse to return se hao's money..

i secretly pass the money to er jie..n we continue to eat...while se hao is still pestering us to return the $$..cause he said the money is for our "Ah-Ma" to eat lunch de..ha..so...we have to return him liao..

after that..we separated with er jie..n i followed them to Bukit Timah Plaza..as they r lazy to walk...we actually took a cab to there.n i was sitting at the middle...so when there's a turn..i either lean to jx or ds.haiz..i will never sit in middle again..$3.20...fast 1..

We sitted at the Attitude studio cafe...ben paid for my chocolate milk..n i used my laptop while they went to do their rer project..after that..i do the pym survey result with ben..he talked..n i type..draw the charts..n we r done in less than 1/2 hr..

after that..me n jx took bus home..n we were super tired..i even drop my laptop while sleeping in the bus..

tired day..everything is so packed this weekend..

PIZZA HUT!!

2008-01-22T23:11:00.001+08:00

i really like the IS we attending now..except for the doing assignment part..cause the lecturer is a funny guy..will say jokes..n we watch a love moive 2day.."Keeping the Faith"..the whole movie..i only know Ben Stiller..although is draggy..but still ok la..

went to Bukit Timah Plaza to eat Pizza Hut with daryl n se hao..jx not coming cause she rebonding her hair..so..only we 3 went to eat..we saw pierre png there..

i ate chicken ole baked rice..not bad wor..but very cheesy...n that 2 still order drumlets n garlic bread..in the end..garlic bread canot finish..so take away...n they don wan..so that was my dinner...that daryl..super disgusting..use his legs to "seduce" se hao..n when he fails..came to "attack" my legs..so me n se hao each hold a knife n fork..ready to attack back..ha..
we saw li jing mei there too..

we went to do rer assignment..walk the whole shopping centre to write down the tenants names..wa..super hate the whole building la..number all messed up..shops r japalang..can demolish liao la..we then went NTUC Finest to see those ex stuffs they sell..n i bought this dew mineral water with daryl..cause 2 for $3.05..but i only pay $1..ha..

went back JP..n i bought a new formal shirt at Bossini..cause i lazy to sew a button for the 1 i bought in Bukit Timah ..anyway..i need to buy many many formal wear this CNY..haiz..no nice clothes for me liao..i haven buy my new clothes yet lor!!!argh..everyday go back home do projects n projects..sianz..

great laughter day!!

2008-01-21T21:55:00.000+08:00

recently..really no mood in blogging..but..if i don give myself a break..i will go mad!!!my mind now is apm..apm..APM!!argh!!

2day lesson was short..cause ended at 2p.m...but..2day was super fun n enjoyable..
morning--went the Reflections at the Keppel Bay..SUPER NICE!!i don feel like going back sch le lor..being rich is so good!!their 2-room unit cost $2++m..3-room cost $5++m..n 1 superior 1 cost 10++m!!arrrr!!i could only say..wa...wa...wa..WAWA!!their toilet was supr nice la..where got transparent toilet so nice de..somemore u shower out..is wardrobe!!arrrr..

anyway..this is only dream..must live back to reality..haiz..ds was super funny..when we r at canteen 3..he say he don wan to eat..cause he wan to save $ to buy Reflections!realy siao sia..he will died of hunger before even save 1% of the $ lor..

after that ..we went for RER tutorial..that AG!!super annoying la..came n disturb our class..n wan to be the moderator..ask Q..he own self ans own self laugh??siao..

Funny part is when the guys wanted to take video for APM..they were acting..n we were kay-po-ing..suppose ben be the poor fashion sense guy..but we think that ds is more suitable..n truely..we discover his talent!!hahahaa..
"wo shi kia kia!!"hahahaha..we 3 girls burst out laughing..n is truely..BURST OUT..uncontrollable la..our laughter still in the video too..

we went to convection to see them take the next scene..that was funny too..ds became a very "handsome" guy n somemore..wan me n er jie act as if we really saw a handsome guy de expression..wa..canot..me n er jie NG..n we never in the scene..cause..i really canot stop laughing!!ha...ds even posed for pics..ai yoh,..never see him so high before de leh..

ytd nite..me n jx need to do our IS assignment..which is..talking to a stranger for 1/2 hr..so..jx tell her friend to add me...i never start 1st..cause i'm waiting for that person to start..ha..n we talked n talked..craps..n it was past 2 hrs??!!i actually chatted with him for 2++ hrs!!to a complete stranger!!somemore is a guy..

2day..my turn to find her my friend to talk to her..n..i found 1..that is...GU GU BIRD!!ha..he was kind enough to help..somemore he said he very nervous..ha..but think they 2 also enjoy talking to each other ba..

2day was really a great laughter day..not a monday blue..

again..

2008-01-18T21:13:00.000+08:00

think i really had enough of it..n thanks to Singtel..i got another scolding again..

supposely..i'm having a good time in sch..laughing n joking at craps..watch NPS performance..take free goodies..went IMM for apm project..BUT..everything change after 7.15p.m...

my phone connection really had a problem..or should say..Singtel had a problem..i did not receive calls from my mother at all..n when i reach home..suddenly got le..so..she thought i purposely switch off my phone..i denied..she still accused me..so ..wat can i do?

when i cried..she said i did that for sympathy..hur...as a daughter..i don gain her trust..n thus..she confiscate my phone again..ok..so..is alright..cause i can still live without a phone..n i am more peaceful without her calls too..

if she wan to do until this extent..i will let her do watever she wan..n from now onwards..i shall treat her as a stranger..since in her mind she only have my sis as her daughter..

2008-01-12T19:47:00.000+08:00

just that i thought i will be alright after being finished crying..i was wrong..in fact..my disaster continue everytime i reach home..esp 2day...

she accused me for not calling her when i going to go home.even though i got no phone..she insist that i can call her using public phone..???.

i was just telling my sis something..she said why must i shout at her...???i used my normal way to talk..

she wan me to post on newspaper that we are no longer mother n daughter...???..i don have that $ to waste..

when i was squating down picking something..she purposely walked past me n kick me..???..i'm a ball?

i told myself not to cry...but my tears just drop..i cried cause she don trust me..she treat me as free maid..treat me as rubbish..

if she treats me like this everyday..i will really go n die..n i'm serious..cause living in this kind of place will make me go crazy..i don wan to be rubbish..i don wan to be a maid..i don wan to be a coward..i don wan to be nothing...

i feel that my life is meaningless..do i really don deserve to get family love?is that too much to get?
19 yrs..i had never feel warm-ness of this family..is this the punishment that i get from doing too much of evil things?if that so..take me away...

i believe u will not be able to see me much time le..cause..i don know wat i'm going to do the next min..maybe i wil live happier then....

2008-01-11T22:00:00.001+08:00

At this point of time...i admit that i'm weak..useless..n worthless...In fact..i feel that my existance in this world is an extra..i feel meaningless in living le..

Cause i came home late..she confiscated my phone..n i knew..this time she treat it real...but i knew this was just an excuse..cause she aim at me since a long time ago.. not using anything that she buy...i can't defend myself..as in front of her..i don have the right...or should say..i am nothing to her..

i think i wasted almost a litre of tears le..since the past few days..she had threw her temper on me very hard..but i still put on a smile in sch..staying happy..but it will be an end after i reach home..n especially 2day..i was so depressed of things that happened to me..that i really intend to die..just jump down.that will be the end...maybe i will be happier..really..

i hate her..n i hate him too...for ignoring all the nuisance she did to me..i was wondering..am i their daughter?maybe they only have 1..but that will not be me..i hate to live in this place..or should say..i hate to live anymore..

maybe she was rite..i am a coward..a useless coward..i am nothing to her..but a worthless burden..

19 yrs..so i was nothing to them at all..19 yrs..i tolerate for so long..n now..i don wan to tolerate anymore..i am really very tired..

Please don be surprised if i die the next day...cause u r not me..u will not understand my situation..i'm just tired..really wan to take a long lasting rest..that no need to wake up forever..

emo emo..

2008-01-10T23:34:00.000+08:00

2day was super funny..during lsm..i sit on the chair..as i lean..i almost fell from leaning behind..cause the chair was spoiled..ha..but i still sit on it..n took special care..cause scared will really fall until very jia lat..ha..

n we got free octopus balls from the guys cause i let them copied my lsm notes..ha..earn my breakfast so easily..ha..as we r very sleepy during ABT lesson..i started out with playing hangman woth er jie n ds..ha..n all my ans related to food..

ate prawn mee n 1/2 of roti prata..super full le..so gave my another 1/2 to seok cheng..went to phtocopy stuffs for oiap..went for RER lesson..was very sleepy..but..my mood was super affected by wat daryl said to me..so i was pulling a long face for the whole lesson..we went to find mr sami 1/2 hr before lesson ends..cause also no mood to hear wat lecturer said..sami was not there..so we went to find TCH to help us print stuffs..n we keep suaning n joking with him..ha..sooo fun!!

went to ABT tutorial..super sleepy..luckily time pass quite fast..ha..purposely ignored the guys cause i still very angry..went to library to buy sandwich..but no more le..so er jie showed me the hanger she designed 1st..as that chen le sit beside us..i purposely stand beside him to cover his view..ha..was quite childish i know..ha..just then ..was shocked when some1 used a very low voice to say"hello" to us..then saw it was wei sheng..ha.but we ignored him after saying hello back..ha..n he walked off quietly..went to atrium to buy sandwiches n back to BE-axis for the open house briefing..ds was there too..talked for 1 hr..n we can go off..

was so sleeping while taking the bus..so thought i can sleep for at least 45 mins..BUT..this guy..sitting beside me..don know if he is really tired or wat..sleep until the head keep leaning towards me..n is many times..almost touched me..i used my hands to push him back..n again..n again..was so annoyed that i squeezed myself until i only sit little on the chair..but..he can actually wake up before his stop..although he sleep so deeply??!but luckily he alight..if not i will have to sit until so terribly until i reached boon lay..but i already had no mood in sleeping le..$..^&&@@...

life is meaningless to me..

2008-01-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

2day was super mood swing..excited at the beginning to dissappointment at last..why?here i tell the story..

me n hui yun went to find mr sami regarding to oiap stuffs...we r confirmed posted to HK...n we knew the company that we r going to work at there...but the most important thing is we need to settle the application of visa thing by tml..

went violin prac cause got performance on sun..but i think i canot go ba..we went alumni clubhouse to eat dinner..but me, er jie n zhen qi were super full..don know why..so me n er jie shared 1 seafood hor fun..but it was not nice de..cause got those "cao da" smell..eee..zhen qi even never finish 1/2 of her fried rice..

super irrited by shaun..i also don know why..others ask me why colour my hair..i will reply them nicely..but when he asked..i started to suan him..ha..

prac was not fun at all..n i had to leave at 8.30p.m..cause need to reach home by 9.30p.m...n there goes my dissappointment..my phone don know why don have connection at 10++p.m...but my mother think that i never go prac..n i purposely switch off phone n refuse to pick up her call..when actually i received none..i explanied to her..but she think that i was shooting back to her..she forced me to hand her my phone..haiz..she don even trust her own daughter..wat can i say?

eventually..all these started up cause she having quarrel with my father...n thus..se throw her temper on me..n i became the victim..last time..i will not hate my father..but i don know why..i hate him ytd..cause he started up this nuisance with her..but when she throw temper on me..he never help me to settle at all..n he even went to sleep!argh!i hate this kind of family..why am i so unfortunate to be born here?

i had such a unresonable mother..i keep thinking that why she can't just trust me at all?am i not her daughter?am i a maid to her?that she can throw her temper on me?i started to cry while i wanted to sleep..cry until my whole body trembles..i suddenly feel myself very weak..canot control my emotion like last time..i was such a loser..i promised myself not to cry even get all these treatments from her..but..i failed..at that point of time..i feel like rushing out of the door..away from this place..away from this haunted house..BUT..i still didn't..cause i can only continue to study if i stay..

As i cried..my nose r blocked..n i can't breathe at all..i started to think..if i can't breathe now..will i die like this?i really tried not to breathe..cause i find my life very meaningless..why not just die like this?everything will be settled..i will forever not hear her scolding..no need to do housework..no need to bother about everything..i stop breathing for 1/2 min..n i started to feel restless..n i sit up..blow my nose..n think again..maybe i should carry on my path..n not ending like this..cause i still have others who cared for me..showing me concern n care..n is them..who pulled me up..so..i shall be staying happy n laugh as i wan to..cause i deserve it..

funny IS..

2008-01-08T22:37:00.000+08:00

2day i wake up late again..but not purposely de..cause..my alaram clock was slower by 1 hr!!ha..i thought i wake up at 6a.m..but whe i went out the living room..was shocked to see the time..7a.m!!arrr..i faster wash up n change clothes..n i leave the house within 15 mins..ha..but i just realised that actually i no need to rush..cause..i taking train..zzz..

thus..i reach sch earlier than jiaxin..ha..ni met lian kai at cheers while i buying food..just as i went out..i realised i never bring water bottle..so i went back to buy..n se hao came..lastly jiaxin..we went separate ways for lesson..

2day lesson was so funny..lecturer shared many jokes n stories with us..n we tried speed dating..ha..but we r speechless after indtroduction..ha..

did apm discussion at atrium after IS..n we went back to JP to take some pics related to it..there's the end of my day..

argh!!abt model..

2008-01-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

2day had a long break..from 2-5p.m...so me n er jie stayed at blk 35 de dolphin tables to do..n eventually i thought need to cut the arcylic..don know wat daryl n se hao did..the actually fit in it into my external walls..but there r stil mistakes..cause i did not bring much papers n board..we can't do anything..so we chat for that few hrs..ha..

n ds, benjamin n amanda also doing theirs at the table behind us..ds don have anything de la..lend from me 2 pencils, 1 long ruler, 2 scissors, 1 pen knife..i wonder if i not there how they do their work??ha...ds owed me many things ar..must return by doing the pym assignment..ha..

lian kai n seok cheng also joined in..n lastly daryl..we went n disturbed them..ha..cause nothing to do..

our model was almost done..just that need to redo 3 walls..hopefully can done it finish by next week..

1st visit to hospital..

2008-01-04T21:41:00.000+08:00

2day jiaxin went to operation..me n er jie went to look n see her after our sch ends at 11a.m...

cause was still early..we went to eat at bukit timah hawker centre with ds n benjamin..ds was super ah peh..still order "teh-O"..n say early in the morning must drink kopi or teh-O..

me n er jie ordered wan ton mee..n ds was back to ah peh again..keep giving comments.."why not eat the veges?...why must twist the chopsticks?...why eat the wantons last?...so many comments..just like father nagging to children like that..ai yoh..

n er jie realised she forgot to go SDAR..so we need to go back sch again..n ah peh nagged again..say why don take bus?...why must walk to sch?..we just ignored him n say bye..ha..

back to SDAR to find edward..he's back from hk..n wat he bought from hk is packs of doggies, 10 in a pack..at HK10..zzz..me n er jie "kam-po" 1 each..ha..n he keep say i always make a nuisance at his table..actually is his things fragile lor..

took bus no.61 to queensway..along the journey..although i very sleepy..i dare not sleep.. cause scared forgot to alight..n er jie canot tahan..so she fall asleep very fast..ha..we stopped at queensway shopping centre to see shoes n also look for flowers..the security guard there was so rude..i only ask got place sell flowers ma?he said don have..n when i wan to ask him how to go AH..before i say 1/2 of my sentence..he keep say nonono..idiot..

actually AH was just beside the shopping centre..but it looked so "wu-loo" outiside..we bought a bear for jx!!n a card that i made..2gether with greetings from us n the guys..canot find where she stay..so we walked around..just then..js msg me..we were shocked..cause is like so "qiao"..ha..n the nurse was saying another ward..so..being unsure..er jie said we looked at the ward the nurse said..cause jx might have typing error..

in the end..the ward was a guy..so we really believe wat jx said is rite..we found the right ward..saw jx..was super heart-pain to see how painful she was..but we got no ways to cheer her up..so can only talk to her...n make her feel more relaxed..her other friends came too..n we all like jx's nurse..pass her water..tissue n all other things..we left after 2 hrs..cause i need to get home by 6..was relieved to see jx was well n able to talk n repeat same story for times..ha..

full full..

2008-01-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

2day is my very 1st time saw da jie after so long!!haha..

got violin prac as usual..n i really had no interest to go prac le..so restless liao..haiz..went alumni clubhouse to eat dinner..with da jie, casilda, gaynes n chris..

our sitting arrangement was quite weird..n somemore i did silly thing..i tend to crawl out under the table..n not only once..is many times..i also don know why..maybe is weird to ask chris to let me walk pass..since he sitting beside me n doing his work..we ordered many food..main course for every1..i ate fried rice..n we ordered side dishes..fries n shrimp paste chicken..da jie still blur blur thought is chicken paste shrimps..zzz..ha..

prac was quite slack..there goes another day...

start of sch!=((..

2008-01-02T21:32:00.000+08:00

sianz..i haven even enjoy my holidays well..n there's the end..but 2day PYM is e-learning..so actually we only need to go for 1 hr APM lecture at 2p.m...but...cause we haven start our APM assignment..me, er jie n jiaxin meet at 10a.m in sch to do discussion...n around 12++..ds n ben came so we discuss our PYM assignment..effran was there too..doing his work..

manage to distribute jobs to er jie n jiaxin regarding apm..n we need to start working..cause time is running out..

1st day of sch at 2008 just added like this ...nothing special at all..

bye bye to 2007!!

2007-12-31T21:39:00.000+08:00

2day was the last day of the year 2007...many things happened this year..good n bad...shall do a recap...

In year 2007..i did...
-in my 19 years of life..i dyed my hair for the 1st time..ha..although i got abit regret..

-went OBS..1st time jump into the sea!..n also 1st time to Pulau Ubin..n sleeping at night on a sailing boat!!with those big winds n sea waves..n seasick for days..

-1st time organising music camp..had been going thro planning n meetng for 4 mths..luckily..is a successful 1..

-had a terrible quarrel with my mother..n was super hurt by wat she said..

-earn more friendship n also at the same time, lose some..but i will cherish those friends that i have now..n also thanks all for being my friend!

-went for more outings with NPS ppl, although always never more than 10 ppl..butwe have been to prawning..zoo.eat sushi.n watch movie..all very fun..more gatherings with classmates.1st time exchanging christmas presents with them..was quite fun!..kbox-ing with my dear sisters, movie sessions..all secretly..cause everytime lied to my mother that i went back to sch..ha..

-watched many dramas too...good n bad..but i super love coffee prince!!

actually also not much things done this year...my life is very simple though..

Hope that year 2008 is going to be a good 1..with all staying happily..

生命...

2007-12-30T22:56:00.000+08:00

即使在這種惡劣的情況下，仍然堅信不移，我相信每個人心中都有一個圖，在那裡埋藏著許多潛能；只要我們去表現，去喚醒這些沈睡的能力，便有辦法克服任何困境。

許多人在面對疾病時，不是怨天尤人就是惶恐不安，其實他們的心理比身體更加脆弱。然而，身體的健康往往要依賴心理的堅強和樂觀，用意念戰勝病魔遠勝於無用的呻吟。

我和一位朋友傾談，他說雖然有兩份工作，而每月的收入卻非常低，但他已很高興了。我很奇怪他還可以那麼開心，因為他的收入微薄，要節衣縮食才可以供養他年邁的父母、岳父母，太太，兩個女兒，還有一般家庭的各項開支。

他解釋說，那是因為數年前他在印度目睹一件事件的啟發。當時他因為一次重大的挫折、心情低落，所以到印度散心。他說他親眼看到一個印度婦人，用刀將她的兒子的右手切下來。那婦人無助的眼神，以及四歲稚童痛苦的呻吟，至今仍令他心頭作痛難以釋懷。

你可能會問：為什麼那母親要這樣做？是否她的小孩太頑皮，或是他的手受到感染？都不是，原來只是為了行乞！那絕望的母親特意把孩子弄成傷殘，只是為了使他可以在街上行乞。

我的朋友嚇呆了，他把他吃到一半的麵包放下，隨即有五六個小孩湧至，爭食這片佈滿沙石的麵包，就如面對飢餓時的自然反應。

他對這情景很吃驚，他要導遊開車把他送到最近的麵包店，他去到其中兩家，把所有的麵包都買下來，麵包店的老闆很愕然，不過還是願意把所有都賣給他。他花了不足一百元，就買到約四百塊麵包(即每塊少於 25仙)，又用了一百元買一些日用品。

於是，他坐在一部載滿麵包的貨車往街上去，當他分發麵包和日用品給那些大部份是傷殘的兒童時，他們都報以歡喜和鞠躬，就是這樣，他在生命中第一次想到人們怎麼可以為一片價值不足25仙的麵包而那麼感動。

他開始對自己說，他是多麼的幸運：他有個完整的身軀，有一份工作，有個家庭，有機會抱怨食品的好與壞，有機會穿衣服，有機會擁有很多這些人沒有的東西。

現在，我開始想到和感受到：我的生命是否真的那麼差？也許吧？但想到這故事，我就覺得不是那麼慘。你呢？

或者下一次你覺得自己的生命很差的時候，
想想那個因為行乞失去了一隻手的小孩吧！
『滿足感』不是來自去滿足於你想要的，
而是能感受到：
你所擁有的，已是那麼足夠。

CHOMP-CHOMP!!

2007-12-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

we had our class gathering at chomp-chomp!!

haha..our class gathering had me, er jie, jiaxin, daryl, dai seng, benjamin, lian kai n se hao..

It was my 1st time going chomp-chomp..n i never knew that it was a well-known hawker centre in singapore..

it was super far..cause we meeting at ang mo kio mrt station..n somemore need to take bus to there around 15 mins..

but the food was super nice!!we ordered many food..stingrays..sotong...kang kong...hokkien mee..oyster egg...chicken wings...carrot cake...satays...n sugar cane juice..so many...n all spent $92...so each is $11.50...so full...

since still got little time left..we went to play pool...n i received my christmas presents from er jie n jiaxin!!!

i never play the pool at all..cause my skills r too lousy....

it was a fun class gathering..although it doesn't look like 1 class at all..ha..

Sick-ening Christmas Eve..

2007-12-24T20:40:00.000+08:00

I received 2 christmas present 2day..

-free movie ticket to watch "I am Legend"

-free drink at Starbucks..

was super sick 2day..stomachache n wan to vomit..but canot vomit..super idiot feeling..but still went to meet them for movie session at cine..took bus no. 174 to there..was quite fast than i expected..almost wan to vomit out in the bus again..think i got the same syndrome as my sis..

Was 1/2 hr late..hehe..but they won't mind de la..they were at Adidas shop buying a shirt for Se Hao..after that they went to eat LJS..i never eat anything..cause scared will really vomit..then Se Hao came..i was super emo at there..n they keep wan me to talk..when i don feel like to..

Ticket queue was super long..as there is still a long time to go..we went Paragon de Toys R Us..daryl bought 2 5 x 5 Rubik's cubes for lian kai n poh chong..i was like a moving display..followed wherever they go..then went to taka cause se hao need to buy present for his friend..n back to Paragon again..Starbucks was full with ppl so we went another Starbucks..

n i got a free treat from them..Java Chip Frappe?or something like that..was quite nice..daryl drank the Ice Passion Tea..n he added 2 cups of sugar solution!!n they keep try on the test after adding it..i was super quiet cause i can't get involved with wat they talked..

Went back to Cine to watch the movie..i can't even got time to go toilet..super urgent..n we sat at the side..the front 2nd row..really train our neck flexibility..i canot tahan anymore so i went to toilet 1/2 way of the show..was quite pai seh cause must walk very long up to toilet..

the movie was....err..not that nice as i expected...ws draggy n disgusting..n ending was..har??..by nvm..cause i watched the movie for free..

Went back home..was super dizzy..i think i had a fever now..

My free drink..

=(...

2007-12-23T14:21:00.000+08:00

2day supposely can go out with da jie for meeting up n shopping..haiz..so suay..my sis was sick during last midnight..vomitted..n whole family woke up..don know why..my mother get so worried when she's sick..n when i am..she will just say don die at home..n she blamed me for buying "dirty" food for her to #$%^&**^%#$%^&..

So i never get any enough sleep at all..have to wake up early to take sis to see doctor..so she got food poisoning..same as me that day when i went vivo..but that time.i struggled myself from vivo back to home...i was alone at home..almost fainting n dying..n nobody at home knows that i am sick that day..unlike 2day...haiz..i really think that me n my sis have different position at home..she's treasure n i am like..a maid?...forget it..i also don wan those concern at all..

I was wondering..when will it be a day that i will come out from this kind of home?a so called "home" with no warmess at all..although i always have things that i wan..but it just lack of something..love?concern?freedom?i don know whether i really need all of them..but at least i wan freedom..i really don wish to stay at home everyday..n even though i can go out..i must lied to her that i going back sch for projects..sianz..

Can't bother anymore..just hope that day will come sooner or later..

tired....

2007-12-22T12:07:00.000+08:00

2day was so tired!!
meet jx at 11.30 a.m at the bustop..but after waiting until 12p.m..still don see her..until she walked up to me..i think my phone is going to spoil soon..cause i never receive her msg that she sent me on 11++ until 12.25 p.m then i received it..haiz..jia lat..

Ate pepperlunch for lunch..then we start walking around Taka...look for directory..n to Wisma..n to Far East Plaza..n we are so tired that we decided to sit at LJS to rest..jx fall asleep..n i looked around at people doing nothing..we discussed abit on APM project..n was a big headache..so..we deceided..push all jobs to er jie!!!hahaha..

Went back home with really tired legs...

my new covered shoes!!

2007-12-21T14:57:00.000+08:00

My father is so generous 2day..after dinner..we went in to the Converse shop n he asked whether i wan to buy shoes..was quite shocked at 1st cause he rarely will buy things for me..i choose this shoes..cause i think is very nice..usual price is $89.90..but now..offer price is $49.90..hohoho!!so happy..i finally got a new pair of covered shoes!!

咖啡王子1号店!!..

2007-12-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

AHH!!!this is my lastest favourite korean drama..i have watched finish the whole drama within days!!super sweet n nice..is a romantic comedy..

SYNOSIS

As the head of a poor family, the lively and independent Eun-chan, Played by Yoon Eun-hye has worked at just about every job there is. She is hired to work at a coffee shop by Han-gyeol, Played by Gong Yoo who mistakes her for a male and asks her to pose as his boyfriend. A relationship begins between Han-gyeol, who pretends to act as a homosexual to scare off the blind dates arranged by his grandmother, and Eun-chan, who needs to hide her gender to make money.

At his grandmother’s request, Han-gyeol has taken charge of the failing Coffee Prince.

He re-opens the shop together with a few “princes” including Eun-chan and builds a partnership and friendship with them. In this process, Han-gyeol finds himself drawn to Eun-chan, and this “homosexual” attraction confuses him.

2day was the actual event..launching of clementi woods park..need to be there by 8.30a.m..but ds wake up at 8.30 a.m!!ha..late late..came to the park only at 9.45 a.m..ai yoh..

i just think we are doing useless things there..cause we are chatting all the way with Mr tan choi heng..n most guests did not walk up to our booths at all.only few of them..n i don wan to talk to them on the presentaion thing..but TCH keep push me say go n take photo..go n talk..ai yer..so pai seh...the whole event ends at 11++ a.m...so me, daryl, ds n en de went clementi hawker centre n eat..while eating...we keep talking about the ladies there snatching drinks business.keep force ppl to order soya bean drinks from them...ke po kias..ha..

Due to my useless phone...the camera was.....can't take a clear pic..but at least ccan see humans rite?ha..these are the Baracudas performing..i never take the pics when the dance group perform..cause..really not nice..ha..

These were the plants that i took after the event..FOC!!ha..these plants need more sunlight n less water..out of the 4 plants..only 3 plants will bloom..so hope that i can wait until the flower to bloom before it dies..n also..if 1 plant bloom..the 1st thing i going to do is to give JX!!ha..if i give her now..i also don think she got time to look after it..

so..let's pray hard that it will blooms!!!

holiday is so sianzzz...

2007-12-19T12:48:00.000+08:00

i just realised that holidays to me is so boring until now...

2day suppose to reach clementi woods park at 4.45p.m...n i intend to take bus no.30 to reach there directly..but that daryl..cause he don know how to go..n said wan to go take the ABT site visit pics..n so i have to meet him at 3p.m at clementi..n worse..it rains heavily..n more worse is..the construction of pre-cast columns had already been done..zzzz..n i still have to follow him to find the shop selling games..when walked there.then realised the shop closed for long..zzz..

so went back to mac n sit..eat..while waiting for ds too..took bus no.175 to clementi woods er park..haiz..i should have not go at all..went there talk around 15 mins n is called rehearsal?....sianz..went back home after that...boring day...

last of all..to JIAXIN!!
U will be able to overcome the circumstance that is ahead of U..No matter wat happen...stay happy!
We will always be there for U!
JIA YOU JIA YOU JIA YOU!!!

Warlords!!shuai ge!!andy lau!!

2007-12-16T15:03:00.000+08:00

ooo...YEAH!!i finally get to watch the Warlords!!cause got my shuai ge!!Andy Lau!!Takeshi also not bad..ha...

the meeting for movie session was only decided last night at msn...daryl called me,se hao, lian kai, jx they all to watch..but er jie going JB..jx got CO prac..so only me n the 3 guys going..n se hao called me transformer..zzz..such a not nice name..daryl is ah siao n lian kai the drunkard..

meet at Cathay at 12.30p.m but i came at 1p.m..purposely late cause they never punctual..but only daryl n se hao turned up..cause lian kai fallen asleep on his chair..after chiong-ing at pub n reached home at 9a.m!!by the time he wake up...already 3p.m le!ha..went to buy chips at 7-Eleven n Polka Green Tea 1.5L..n all stuffed in my bag..daryl still bought the 9"Jumbo Hotdog meal..

we were talking all the way during the movie..discussing n laughing..giggling..i was so scared that ppl behind will scold us for being so noisy..movie was not bad..but was quite violent..cause they anyhow kill the ppl..u can see chopped hands n legs..dead bodies..stacking on 1 another..n i was super sad when my shuai ge died..haiz...se hao eventually almost finished the whole big packet of chips himself..ha..think he going to explode!

After that ..followed them to Paradiz Centre as they wan to eat at the foodcourt..n also to the arcade..i played a free ride of daytona..n i was giving up at 1st..cause the car keep reverse direction..but just as i get on to the technique to drive..i already lose to the other 2 guys..
they carried to play pool for 1/2 hr..they played 5 rounds..n result is se hao 4-daryl 1..i was laughing like siao when they played..cause the balls "refuse" to go into the hole..

finally can go home at 5.45p.m with daryl in the same train..reached house at 6.40p.m...n heard my mother nagging again..but luckily..she went out 15 mins later..ha..

Site Visit..

2007-12-15T14:47:00.000+08:00

Class Photo..

the Whimsical!ha..

Before the site visit..we all meet at citylink to eat lunch at Asian Kitchen..we 3 girls waited the 3 guys for 1++hr..haiz..nowadays guys ar...had a very full lunch there..ate the "lover's meal" with er jie..ha..share fried rice n "Zha Jia Mian"..n "Guo Tie".."Xiao Long Bao"..we spent quite a lot for a lunch only..

Site visit was at Raffles Place..Ocean Towers..super scared of the lift..was fast when it took only sec to go up to 25th storey..but was super scary..we walked around the building...n even to the roof!!..super nice view..

Was very annoyed by Ag..asked so many Qs..n talking non-stop..

All went to town after that...so only me n ds taking train home..

LAST DAY!!!

2007-12-14T12:45:00.000+08:00

FNALLY!!!LSM n RER papers ended my days of suffering...

Went to eat Mac breakfast early morning at KAP..initially i thought er jie knew that we going to eat cause i left her a msg at msn..but this morning i asked her she said don have..i talked to others for so long nothing happen only to her..haiz..

so end up i'm the only girl..n i;m the 1st 1 who reached even though i'm late..then lian kai came..n daryl...se hao..the way they eat hotcakes is disgusting..putting pepper on it somemore..eee..poh chong came after he took his REL paper..n he eat super fast..he even dipped hashbrown into curry sauce..

went back for LSM paper..wa..was super difficult..maybe we really never pay attention at all..was hard finding the ans..

went canteen 1 with jx, er jie,ds n ben..i only ate red bean soup..n it was super not nice..
went library to study..but actually we talked craps more than studying..n we end up talking n talking until the time reached 2++p.m..

RER paper starts..was super annoyed by that Ag..keep ask lecturer Q n made irritating noise..n even said wat miss home so must faster hand in the paper..was super pissed off by him..oo...the paper was super jia lat..section A is ok..but i really talk craps on section B..hope i can pass ba..

FREEDOM!!i finally get to sleep well n watch my favourite tv shows..but still have to chiong projects..haiz...

3rd day of test...

2007-12-13T14:22:00.000+08:00

APM..the "common sense' paper..

wrote alot of things..but don know whether related ma...haiz...

1 more day..n my holiday starts!!

2nd day of test..

2007-12-12T14:15:00.000+08:00

ABT...haiz..the most headache paper..

paper starts at 3p.m but we going sch at 12p.m to eat n study..eventually main motive is to eat la..
on the way to sch in bus..jx was drawing the foundation thing..n i was looking around..just then a very cute auntie sitting in front of us.. purposely took out those old photos n see..but her eyes not seeing..she tend to look around to see if any1 notice her..she even approach to talk to few girls n start to talk about her stories..those victory..me n jx were eavedropping n laughing behind her ..sounds quite bad..

Went to canteen 2 to eat lunch with jx, er jie, lian kai n se hao..after a full lunch..we started out ABT revision..n time goes fast..paper going to start..

paper was...ok only ba..at least those i studied came out..just that few Q i don know how to study..

2 more days...to my freedom..

1st day of test..

2007-12-11T15:12:00.000+08:00

PYM..although is open book..i still had not much confidence..hope everything will be alright..

pray hard..

hair..hair..

2007-12-10T14:05:00.000+08:00

Believe it or not..i went to colour my hair!!
u must be thinking that i am too free..n somemore common tests r coming..but i really went to colour my hair..
Eventually..i just wan to cut my hair..but since my mother also need to colour her hair..n i need to wait for her..so i decided to try too..after 19 yrs of having black hair..my colour now changes to copper brown?initially i wanted dark hazel n red..but outcome is not as wat i expected..

but..overall still ok ba..just that i stil not used to the new colour..tml is the start of common tests..n i now still watching tv..

haiz..wish me good luck..

2007-12-06T12:28:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO
TAN JIAXIN!!

The present that i bought yesterday for JX was "Got Blood Got Sweat!"..haha..i was risking my life leh..haha..

Was hurriedly decorating this paper bag outside Cheers with er jie..thus, we r late for PYM tutorial..

We only gave the present n this small cake to JX after PYM lecture..

Went to watch Enchanted with da jie, er jie n da jie's friend..hamizah.after our APM lecture..movie was very romantic n sweet!!

Understanding Relationship..

2007-12-05T11:43:00.000+08:00

2day IS was....suppose to start at 8a.m..we were late by 10mins..but only saw lecturer's laptop..n few classmates..so we sitted at the very back..n jx went to sleep le..the class was quite noisy..there r 2 distinct who making noise..talked quite loudly..unexpectedly..lecturer only appeared at 9.30 a.m..which means jx slept for1 1/2 hr!

started up with some intro games..quite nice games to kee pus awake..

was switching classroom to watch a video..a very nice BBC documentary..about the survey on men and women..realised that men had many bad points..we had to switch classroom again as other class need to use it..

wrote a 250 word essay on the difference of men and women in relationship..n we went off..
went to vivo n meet da jie to buy stuffs.ate LJS ..i already got prediction that i will not feel well eating it...cause some parts are not cooked yet..n the ice milo was so diluted...

on the way home..i was taking bus no. 30..1/2 way..was really feeling not well..i got no plastic bag..but the stuff's plastic bag..so i vomitted inside..was so scared that i will faint outside..but luckily..i am able to endure and went home safely..

HERO!

2007-12-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

2day had only 2hr of APM lecture n after that..we have 4 hrs break!so me, er jie n jx went to cine n watch HERO..surprisely..ds followed us along..took cab to there..bought tickets n while waiting for jx's 2 friends to come..we went to buy snacks..n ds bought the Jumbo Hotdog meal..$7!!

waited for jx's freinds to come n we went iu the theatre..the movie was long..but was nice!me n er jie shared the snack..which cost $3.20..n only 4 pieces..so we eat very very slow..bits by bits..went to eat Pastamania..don know why..i ordered the same chicken bolognese as er jie..but my portion was obviously bigger tha hers..but i still managed to finish it..leaving a big portion of gravy..took cab back to sch...

ABT practical..we finally finished doing the exterior wall of our model..during the lesson..saw an annoying "giant" keep making disturbing noise..when se hao imitate his laughing sound..he even said se hao is scary..me n amanda were like giving the same expression..n we laughed..just don understand why is he making himself annoying??is it that he wanted to catch attention?or basically he wanted to show off something..strange person..weirdo..

What do may name means?

2007-12-02T15:10:00.000+08:00

C is for Charismatic

L is for Likeable

A is for Astounding

R is for Responsible

I is for Irresistible

C is for Cheerful

A is for Alluring

LOO

K is for Kind

A is for Articulate

R is for Rich

S is for Strong

W is for Whimsical

E is for Earthy

E is for Excellent

D is for Dizzy

LOO

J is for Jolly

I is for Impressive

A is for Adventurous

X is for X-Rated

U is for Unreal

E is for Earnest

sharp n flat..

2007-12-02T14:12:00.000+08:00

2day prac was SCARY!!!
reach clubhouse at 11++a.m.. suppose to eat lunch with zhen qi, da jie n er jie..but hor..da n er jie were late for soooo long!!suppose to say will reach 11++ to 12 p.m..then msg say will reach at 12.30 p.m ..but worse..they came for prac at 1.30 p.m!!zhen qi have to buy her lucnh n eat upstair..n me..was already hungry until full le..

prac was really scary 2day..only 8 ppl in total..all girls..n we r to play the finger exercise 1 by 1..i'm the 1st 1..got takan like siao..more worse is when playing the scales 1 by 1 also.."too sharp!".."too flat"..he keep repeat all these throughout the prac..

prac ended at 3++p.m..they happily playing with flute n others..while me n da jie feel so much like extra there..so we went to go celo prac room..i learn to play the cello Kanon 8 notes le!!haha..then went home 1st..

how how!!haven start study yet..die die..haiz..

finally posted..

2007-11-30T17:33:00.000+08:00

These are the neo-prints that we took 2week before..when we are having our Sisters

gathering at cine..to watch Game Plan..waited for xiao mei to scan for long..now..i got the neo-prints back n i scan myself..faster..

Image-less!!ha..

2007-11-29T15:18:00.000+08:00

2day PYM tutorial was crappy..Mr Tan ask us to form group to do assignment..so daryl n se hao asked him if can 6 ppl in a gp..then i said they wan 6P!!haha..Mr Tan can't believe i said out this la..haha..
n he mentioned it again in lecture..i didn't listen to wat he said..is amanda n daryl that told me that Mr Tan mentioned to the WHOLE LT that i knew wat is 6P!!oh no..no image le..haha!!my PYM project mates r as usual..the GRC members..n additional CEO ben n HR manager DS..

went to Canteen 4 for lunch..DS don let me play Lian Kai's PSP sia..i waited until sleep liao lor..n by the time i wake up..moody sia..worse than never sleep..was almost falling asleep in APM lecture..but luckily..i can still pay attention..

Went to do ABT model measurement ..take arcylic..suppose to do at BE-axis..but the cleaner auntie need to off air-con after mopping the floor..so we shift location to clubhouse..n we r 5 mins earlier before shower rain starts!

I stared blankly at the vanguard for long time before i give up..me n er jie end up went down Canteen 1 to buy food..i ate my favourite dessert!!red bean soup!!finally waited until 4.30p.m..n my "SAVER" came!!COLIN!!haha..i really never regret going OBS..cause i get to know such a helpful friend..hehe..

He was so PRO sia!!me n er jie the eyes wan to roll out liao lor!!he even draw out the model measurement in autoCad..n u must see the speed that he changes parts for the drawing..super fast!!ai yoh.."Bian Tai"!but also cause of him..i realise there is still hope for our model..finally..now i only need to download the autoCad software again n open his file..relieved!!

haha..a BIG THANK Q to my SAVER!!..must treat him meal to repay his effort to help us..

went to SDAR after that..was all the way crapping with edward..lame uncle..he even said we too suay..cause er jie once used the photocopy machine..paper jam..ai yoh..is he lazy to photocopy for us lor..he still called us auntie..then he "ah Peh"!haha..old uncle lazy to exercise walk around..but was very fun crapping with him..ha..jia lat..fun crapping with an uncle..

model..model..model!!

2007-11-28T13:48:00.000+08:00

i need tonic to brighten my eyes!!arGH!!drawing lines is not easy..drawing many straight lines n windows r even more tiring..my eyes r so dry n back bone is bending until so pain...stupid ABT model!!

meet up with daryl n se hao to do the model measurement in BE-Axis..i was drawing fast.but i eventually found out mistakes after i finished drawing!!almost wan to tear the vanguard sia!!start at 12++p.m n we draw until 3++p.m..was so tiring cause put too much focus..

Went to clubhouse to slack abit n also wait for xiao mei to come n go support da jie 2gether..luckily never wait for him..iris bought us souvenirs from Korea!!Thanks to her..even thought of us when she was in holiday!!n i tried the black sesame sweet that she bought there!!nice nice!!

Nice Key Chain!!

Cas n Iris acc me to go da jie's booth..she's selling accessories..really ex la..but still support her by buying these 2 necklaces..PIANG!!heart broken!!ha..

$5 Necklace

$10 Necklace

Xiao mei was super late..called at 4++p.m n he was still in outram park..i even lied to him that we can buy for him 1st..cheapest is $20!!ha..n he said he will buy...in 20 HK dollar.. but by the time he came, booth closed liao lor!

Join dinner with Iris, Cas n "Chen Lei" at Canteen 1..was all the way suaning "Chen Lei"..haha..so fun..Iris suppose to have her last violin teaching lesson with the guys..but..lionel n gaynes last min PS her..n only "Chen Lei" coming for her lesson..so she decided to cancel it..so poor thing..

Was so lazy to climb the bridge so take same bus with Iris..i really don know that Bus no.52 can reach Shell station..was suspicious when Iris said can take..haha..but it really can!!ha..

I really regret taking Bus no. 157..it was sooooo super slow..took the bus at 6.15p.m but reach bus interchange at 7p.m!!i even need to buy dinner for my sis at JP..reach home at 7.30p.m!!i was predicting that my mother will nag again..but she didn't..cause she was in a hurry to go out!!Pewh!!luckily!!

Oh Dear!!common tests r coming!!n i haven started studying!!jia lat!!worse is i didn't pay attention in lectures at all since sch opens..haiz..alert!!

Busy Busy!!

2007-11-27T13:14:00.000+08:00

2day was busy sia!!

went to the construction site at clementi--Clementi Town Sec Sch..for our ABT project..we need to wear helmet to go in..n the project manager wanted us to wear boots to go inside the site..wearing boots is so uncomfortable..this is my 1st time seeing pre-cast columns..was walking around seeing the columns..n back to office to get more info..we r lucky that we always met those friendly construction site staffs..1st time was when we doing the BTC project..

Still had to go to the opposite blk to take pics of how they install the columns...we were so tired that we sit along the staircase..n taking photos..jx even "pei he" daryl doing those lame star jumps..was wasting 1/2 hr sitting there..cause they never install another column..jx went home le..lazy bum..i was really hungry..so went to Mac to buy meal..on the way..don know why me, er jie n daryl r so childish that we r competing who walking fast 1st..n in the end..i end up running sia..

Acc er jie go SDAR..i eventually finished my meal at there..in ABT lecture..i was not listening at all..cause was playing lian kai's PSP.car race n Loco Ruco..correct speling ma??n er jie also..she playing Seok Cheng's PSP..car race also..ha..n dai seng was playing the 3*3 cubes..don know wat that called..he had been playing it since morning sia..

On the way the bustop..me n seok cheng was like going mad..shout each other names..n even "Dai Sing"!haha..n hitting each other..she even pulled me down from the bridge staircase sia..dangerous..i was screaming like hell!!..

Fun n Tired..

2007-11-21T15:41:00.000+08:00

2day finally is the end of our IS for History of Rock n Roll!!2day's videos was alright..better than last week..but was done not too well for the quiz..cause i was not paying attention during the video playing..n is all open-ended Q!arGh!..

Acc er jie to go eat KFC at clementi..took Bus no. 7 to Orchard..was so worried that i will miss the stop i need to alight..so i dare not sleep at all..finally safely reached by 1p.m..meet da jie n xiao mei to cine eat LJS..the new spicy chicken meal was not bad..was asking the lame jokes n da jie react so slooow lor!!ai yoh..old liao la..

Went to buy tickets..n while waiting er jie to come, we went to arcade to play the table hockey..xiao mei was so fast..me n da jie canot react well n already lose..7-12.pathetic..

Game Plan was a very very nice n sweet movie!!i never knew that the Rock can be a funny guy..was laughing so loudly n was clapping my hands!!haha..uncontrollable.i really find my actions was totally an auntie..haiz...but then after that mood swing cause got sad parts..when his daughter leaves..i cried sia..the tears just drop like dripping water...we even heard 1 of them sitting behind us was sobbing loudly...but luckily is happy ending..

i was so eager to take neo-prints..we went to take a machine that has 30% offer..so is $7..got wind blowing in front...but not nice 1..the drawing part was also rushing n messy..so the design that we had was quite simple...

Went to Taka Art Friend to meet daryl n lian kai to buy ABT materials..but the board was so ex la..so we only bought plastic sheets for the windows..n lian kai helped us pay..cause i got no more $$ in my wallet..went to eat mac..i only left with $1.50..so da jie n er jie helped me to pay 1st..the funny thing is that there are few japanese students sitting beside us..they wanted me to help them take photo with a malay guy!haha..cute sia..the guys are so disgusting..went to mix milo, barbeque sauce, coke 2gether..n they took a sip of it..n asked whether we wan to play a game with them..if lose..will have to drink it..i don wan!so disgusting..

The most funny part happened..we r searching for the bustop..n we walk around..up n down..then i realised that we just have to take escalator up from mac..haiz..Bus no.171 was super slow..took almost ah hour to reach KAP..was playing the song guessing game with da jie..haha..very fun..next time must play again..

We met "Gu Tian Le" in clubhouse!!haha..er jie n me thought da jie knew him..cause he was saying hello to her..but his name is "Tian Le"..surname is "Wen'.haha..da jie thought he was a freshie when he was actually a alumni!haha..so we also play around when he asked for our names..me is"Liu Jia Ling" ...da jie is "Zheng Xiu Wen"...er jie is "Lin Jia Xin"..haha..full of craps..were practising Kanon..n ah hui came to join us..he became "Chen Lei"!haha..

Went home 1st without da n er jie at around 9++p.m..ah hui said wan to acc me for the short journey to the gate..was so funny..i played the Chen Lei song that da jie send me to let ah hui hear..n he really do the actions out n sing the song..haha..

Was so happy the whole day until i reached home..there she nagging again..sianz..

2007-11-19T14:42:00.000+08:00

mahjong!!!

2007-11-17T14:04:00.000+08:00

2day was fun!!!
we had a enjoyable time during our 3 hr break..went to alumni clubhouse to eat the buffet..at only $6.40..we r quite full with the 1st round le..but we still took some curry puffs, kuehs, fruits n ice kacang..i love the kueh!!so nice...n our ice kacang is so pathetic..less than a bowl..cause machine was spoiled after we tried to use it..r we the 1 spoiling it?oOOps..

Was talking n relaxing when my yang said we can actually book the card room to play mahjong!!My very 1st time playing!!in sch somemore!!we used 2 tables..on 1 table are PRO mahjong-ers..haha..there are jx, ds, benjamin n pc..on another table..got gong gong ppl..there was me..n hy, daryl n se hao..we never pay with $$..luckily..if not i will go broke..

Was really very fun playing it..n the 2 guys r so disgusting..touching hands when "washing" the tiles..so me n hy even laughed said we should also do that..haha...but sadly, me n se hao never win any round at all..daryl win the most..followed by hy...i was going "siao" when picking n throwing tiles..as ds n jx were trying to help me..but i at least learn a little..still got more to learn!!

On next fri onwards, our LSM tutorial will shift to 8 a.m !!oh no..but we will end at 12 p.m!!haha..don know whether we still got the chance to go clubhouse eat n play mahjong!!jia lat..i started to get addicted to it le!!

MOVIE!!

2007-11-15T14:51:00.000+08:00

2day's the OIAP interview!!wooow..was so scared these few days cause of this..even more scared when was walking the pathway to the meeting room for interview..
3 interviewers n me..was answering their questions quite well until some parts when i said without thinking..

i really realised that any outing i planned will always not more than 10 ppl..sianz...but still very
fun!!
2day have me, da jie, xiao mei, xiao mei mei, iris, lionel, cas, annabel n samson ..that er jie la..never go..if not 10 ppl liao lor..

Went to Tiong Bahru by mrt...was crapping in the train...went to buy tickets 1st before eating at KFC..lionel met a funny thing..he was paying the cashier the straw he was holding instead of $$!!haha..n that xiao mei mei..too hyper le..spilled his pepsi n there goes his drink!!he even blur until don know that KFC got student meal!!ai yoh.

Beowulf was a nice movie..with some disgusting scenes..n scary parts too..i used my jacket to cover my mouth to prevent me from screaming...haha..xiao mei mei n me even got shocked by a scene..n xiao mei was covering his face..haha..but we r still figuring out whether the casts r real ppl or computer graphics..cause they look really real!!

Went to take neo-prints!!iris n me were super high!!iris is so pro in neo-prints also..9 ppl squeezing to take shots is not a easy task..sometimes some faces canot be seen..or canot change position..so funny!!me n iris take charge of decorating..actually also canot decorate much...cause too many heads..nice nice pics!!

Suppose to take cab home..but in order to save $$..i took train home..with cas, iris, lionel, xiao mei mei, annabel, samson..

back to home at 10.15p.m...hear her nag again..nvm..cause i had enjoyed my day..

2007-11-12T08:10:00.000+08:00

i really got many thoughts this weekend..mostly unhappy 1s...

until now, althought i have mishaps at home, i'm still considered lucky that i still have friends who really care about me..if not them, i think i really not in this world anymore...i might not be able to endure the pain i suffered..

Special thanks to:

er jie-1st 1 to know wat happened to me ytd night..was complaining to her in the late night..n thanks for ur "jia you"..

daryl-2nd person whom i complained to..wat he said is positive.stand n look at her angle...but i don feel like listen much..

niao ge ge-the 1st 1 who consoled me 2day..although not much help..but still appreciate his effort..

hui ge-the 1 who has similar fate as me..but think i more worse than him..

da jie-the 1st 1 that gives me encouragement on my tagboard..supposed to stop crying le..but after seeing that..i cry until more worse..

jiaxin-she also has bad relationship with her mother..so i always use that to remind myself..i'm not the only 1 unfortunate..haiz..

i guess i can only back to be a happy girl when i'm in sch..so please don complain if i act crazy n keep laughing at small things..cause that is the only time i can laugh out loud..truthfully..

so friends..the only thing that u can help me now..is not console..cause i will cry further..i only wan to laugh..so make me laugh when see me k??

2007-11-12T05:25:00.000+08:00

finally..volcano exploded..but not mine..is hers...i did nothing..i just wake up late..
she finally use her trick on me..

she said-never use the things that she bought..including my phone..thus..she confiscated my phone..n now on...i have no phone to use anymore.n my mp3...bless me!!i will have to survive well without any electronic gadget again..i can..if she really wan to do until so extreme..i just let it be..

she said-regretted to born me to this world...she rather don wan me to be her daughter..fine..i also don think i suitable to be her daughter..my sis can do the job well..19 yrs..have i not done enough??am i her daughter??have she ever care for me?understand my feelings n situation?no..she never..so watever i did at home is useless..nothing but useless..

she said-my hands will be paralyzed if i steal her money..i where got the guts to steal her money?she almost counted her money 3-4 times per day...i not pro..i can't be stealing her money...just cause my wallet has extra money then say is hers..i steal..since u don trust me..i don think i will trust u again..

she said-i can leave the house if i wan..why should i leave?this house is not hers also..my father haven't kick me out yet..so i will NEVER !!if i really wan to leave..i will leave without her telling me..i will...

she said-i should go die..cause i'm useless to her..yes..i WILL!if i really go crazy..i will rush out of house n jump down from 9th floor..i WILL!!n i DARE!!but why should i lost my life cause of her??she don deserve to take away my life away..if 1 day she drives me to insane..i will really do silly things..

she said-i will confirm going to be a nun for my entire life.cause confirm nobody wans me..where got this kind of person tease their own daughter like this??even though i don have any1 that like me..i doesn't have to be a nun..i can still live on my own..not like her..will she be really happy if i really can't get married??nvm..

she said-she look down on me..cause she never think that i'm clever..she's not proud of me at all..so wat for i study so hard?wat for if i get book prize?she confirm that i will not succeed in future..cause i'm just useless..for now..i will study more harder..but not cause of her..is for myself..i don care if she looks down on me..

she said-i should go be a hooker...cause that's the fastest way in earning money..no need to study also..i got nothing to say..this kind of mother..

she...slapped me..k...when was the last time she did it?can't remember..but should be recently...i will keep all these into my brain..i will not forget it in my entire life.NEVER!...i never cry infront of her..i don wan to get teased by her saying that i'm weak..i was crying..in my heart..i'm controlling..not to let my tears drop..not to let her see how weak am i..

don try to console me by saying try to stand on her angle or position..yes.. i might not understand her..but does she ever stand on mine to look at me??she will..only to my sis..i not jealous..i just find it unfair...why should i be the 1 suffering while she enjoys her life?everything she wans can get within days..mine??forget it..i don wan all theses from her also..i will earn it myself..

But now...i was crying when i typing this post out..i don know wat can i do..i am really tired..tired of living le...if this carry on...i really don know when i can cope...wat else can i do???i don know..

why is life so tough for me?i really don know how to cope..i wan to let go..i really wan...

i know hating ppl is a tiring thing..but i really hate her..nothing but hate..

可悲的雪鸟...i'm really 可悲..

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2007-11-11T17:55:00.000+08:00

right now, i HATE her!i really did...in fact, i don wish to have this kind of person to appear in my life..!ARGH!!

Her mouth canot be stopped for once..i was so happy that she was not around at home..i really had a peaceful ear..once she came back...i really feel like leaving home..away from this "jail"..away from this so-called "HOME" to me..

i hate to have curfew at home..when i was 16yrs old, say will let me have freedom only at 18yrs old..when now i 19yrs old, say i have to wait till i 21yrs old..!rubbish..by that time i already go out n work le lor!!i hate my life..i wan FREEDOM!!!i wan to go out with friends..i don wan to lie saying i got prac or do project everytime i go out with them..i wan normal life..NORMAL!!!

Why is it that a person can born to nag so much?she can naggggg non stop for don know how long..really feel like zipping her mouth..or simply sew it..

Never do house chores, nag...use laptop, nag....come home late,nag....go cca, nag...when my wallet have extra $$ then blame me steal her $$!!!i just claim back the $$ that i spent for npstrings lor!.I HAD ENOUGH OF IT!!she better don test my patience..i might explode anytime!!

To her, i only have hatred..nothing but hate..i don know why..i just hate her..she must be under menopause..if not..a normal person will not be able to nag n nag n nag n nag for soooooo long..

She is so serious sick as compared to last time..that time i can still talk well with her..now..NO WAY!!!

WHEN CAN I LIVE A HAPPY LIFE????

"EXCITING" day..

2007-11-07T15:36:00.000+08:00

2day IS was sian again..watched 2 videos...1 have some sexual content somemore..eeeeee..fall asleep during 1/2 way..wake up n watch again..

1st time went to Botanic Garden 2day...was sitting at the back of the bus...was suppose to take a nap..but i was laughing to myself...cause my head keep moving away from the seat..due to the jerking of the bus..even hui yun got influenced by me ...was laughing for so long..

Was all the way writing plants' names n taking down notes...everything went so smoothly until the bus ride back..i did not turn my water bottle well..so, there was a flood in my bag..causing my MP3 n handphone to also 'kana' water liao..the worse part is i can't even on my mp3...

Taking bus home, my phone rang..but it was the Nokia tone..not the song i put as ringtone for long..was so panicked again..faster open up hp casing..that er jie ar..suppose to help me take out the memory card..but.."treww"..my card fly off.haha...luckily can find back..

Thanks to JX, she bring home my mp3 to help me hair-dryed it..but was quite not successful..no sound at all..at least the screen appeared back..just as i was disappointed, i on again..there is sound!!just that 1 buton not working..at least i won't get much scolding..

None of my family members knew that my mp3 was spoil..cause i immediately charge my mp3 into my laptop once i reach home..haha!!

Now, my Mp3 is back to normal!!hahaha..

2day considered a "suay' day for me..really ..

500 word essay!!!

2007-10-30T13:57:00.000+08:00

Have been troubled by the OIAP application essay for days...from staring blank at the paper..to finally wrote something on it..n 500 words produced...from my limited vocab..n help from daryl..

haiz...was going to surrender long time ago..cause was so troublesome..need to scan this n that.write resume n essay..really don feel like going le..BUT...i still wanted to go OIAP at the end..cause really a rare chance for me..to stay away from home..that so called home...

But applying doesn't mean can go definitely..still need to undergo selection n interview...really wish can go Beijing for attachment..sound so fun!!haha..

There is only a main BIG problem..if i'm selected ..where am i suppose to find the $$ to go there..if the subsidy is going to be little..haiz..

NPS Family pic in ZOo!

2007-10-28T13:52:00.000+08:00

ZOOooo!!

2007-10-28T11:26:00.000+08:00

2day was suppoes to be a NPS outing..but..i was disappointed..only a total of 9 ppl r there...including me, hui yun, annabel, iris, samson, gaynes, brandon, lionel n wen kang..haiz...i don feel like organising any outing anymore..

i was blur...cause i thought zoo was beside jurong bird park..n i thought bus no. 194 can bring us there..so i told every 1 to meet at jurong point..but actually zoo was in mandai road..which is at choa chu kang..oh no!!wat a big mistake!!

everything was quite alright in zoo..take photos...see animals..see elephants perform...huge hippo.funny orang utan...cute cotter..n touch kangaroo...just as we r seeing the polar bears, my slippers spoil!!!that stupid gaynes still laughed at me for so long...i was walking like a crippled...until annabel gave me a hairband to tie the slippers n my foot 2gether...ai yoh...so pai seh!!

i quickly went to CHEERS to buy new slippers...haiz..must make sure to wear covered shoes when i go outing that needs a lot of walking in future..

went to take the group photo that we took earlier on from the zoo staff...but was so ex...$15..so we share the $$ n ask brandon to scan for us...was a nice pic anyway..

went back to jurong point by cab..don know whether the driver was purposely or wat..suppose to turn left but he turn right..n turn when he not suppose to...haiz...but he did not charge me more...still very ex..n i found that annabel did not take back her handphone...it was still in my bag...ai yoh..

Hashbrown Freak!!

2007-10-27T11:43:00.000+08:00

i have been continuosly eating hasbrown in the morning for 3 days!!i was so addicted to it that i wan to eat more!!

but i not buying for myself only..i also bought for hui yun, jiaxin n fussy daryl...hui yun even said that i made her grow fat!!but she also enjoyed eating it ma..

It was so great to have hashbrown every morning during lesson..

i don know wat happen to me..have been not attentive in lectures n tutorials at all since sch starts..my persistance only hold for a while..n eyes will auto close soon..can't really understand wat the modules r teaching...jia lat...

wat happen????

Brothers!!

2007-10-27T11:17:00.000+08:00

2day was 1st APM tutorial...was so stressed..cause we r to answer the Qs in our own words when she called our names..i remain silence when she ask me..cause i did the Q..but i copy directly of wat it wriiten in the notes..haiz..n the funny thing is that the lecturer called me "sweet" directly!!so eeeeee la..ai yoh..

went to watch "Brother" 2day at Eng Wah West Mall with hui yun n jiaxin...the whole movie was ok la..but there r some exciting parts..i feel like watching horror movie..but wat frightens me is that the uncle sit beside suddenly said"BOMB!"!..i was shocked by him..n not the movie...........i wanted to watch this movie cause there r many handsome guys..although almost all hit the age of 40++, i still think they r handsome!!especially Andy Lau!!woooo..

had Mos burger for late lunch at 2.20++p.m..need to take away cause tutorial will start at 3p.m!!had the new shrimp cutlet buger!!was very nice!!

we r late for LSM tutorial..reach class at around 3.15p.m le..but luckily..dr mallick very qi chai..n even allow us to eat our mos burger in class...